SAB'S POV
Somebody should tell us right at the start of our lives that we are dying. Then we might live life to the limit. Every minute of every day, do it! Say it! Whatever you want to do, do it now. There are only so many tomorrow. - Pope John Paul VI
Every second that you live, you are never going to get back. You are never going to get to change what you said or didn't say, did or didn't do. Live how you want to live. Act how you want to be remembered, because you never know how long or short you are going to be here. - Emily Doberstein
@sabbiesays: Another hospital day. 👎
Another busy and long day at the hospital for another round of general check- up, needles and laboratory tests. As I look back on the walls of my hospital room, I can't help but stiffle a sad smile. This has been my room for years now, going in and out of its walls but still, never will I ever consider this as home. How ironic could this be? When I was little, I wanted to be a doctor just like mom, I wanted to save lives. I wanted people to not give up, to fight for their life. Mommy would always tell me na noong bata pa ako, umiiyak ako kapag umuuwi kami from hospital dahil ayaw ko umuwi. But now, I loathed every part of it, every day of my stay here. I hate the smell of agony, hopelessness and death it gives me. Para akong dahan- dahan na pinapatay.
Why am I even here?
Bakit ako pa?
Bakit kailangan mag- dusa pa ako kung mamatay rin naman pala ako?
Isabelle Patrice Mijares, 21 years old. And yes, I am a leukemia patient diagnosed when I was 15 years old. And now, the doctors suspect that there might be a remission after I was treated a year ago. I can help but pity myself. While all my friends are starting to plan their future, while they are busy YOLO- ing, here am I. Spending days at the hospital, hoping and praying na sana tomorrow I'm still alive. Na sana bukas I won't feel any pain and at least feel a little normal. What a hopeless case I am in.
"Lalim na namang ng iniisip mo. Mabubutas na yang pader oh!"
Sab: Jewiiicccc!!! *pouts* Inaasar mo na naman ako. Ang aga- aga pa ha. Why are you here? Di ba you have training?
Jeric: Coach cancelled it, tomorrow na lang raw. So I'm yours the whole day.. I'll accompany you. *smiles*
Sab: You have no class? Jeric.. Di porket athlete ka mag- aabsent ka na.
Jeric: I know, Madam. Wala kami class since may faculty meeting po. Para namang pinapaalis mo ako. Ayaw mo ba ako kasama? Ouch, babe ha. *pouts*
Sab: Dami mong arte dyan. Di bagay oy! *laughs*
Jeric: Basta, sasamahan kita dito for today. I'll be your alalay slash buddy for today. Tingnan mo lang tong mukha ko sasaya ka na. Pero please baby wag mo masyado titigan yung biceps ko ha, baka kasi matunaw sila eh. *laughs*
And there's my little hope of sushine, MY JERIC.
To every Thomasian, he's the King Tiger. To his teammates, he's their Team Captain and go to guy. To his family, he's the over protective Ahia. To his friends, he's the clown. But to me, he'a my angel.. constantly reminding me to never give up in my life. Kung meron ngang award sa pagiging optimistic, I'm sure he would win in by landslide, walang kokontra! We've been together for almost 3 years now.. but we have been bestfriends since God knows when. He's been my first playmate, my first school friend, my first prom dance, my first every thing. He's been with me during the times I am losing hope, I'm losing faith in Him. Indeed, an angel.
