CAY'S POV
Baby, wake up. Please? Sorry kung nasigawan kita.
Sabbyyy koo, huwag ka na mag- tampo. Sorry na. Please wake up...
Bubbaaa, bangon ka na dyan oh. Malapit na mag- showing yung Captain America di ba you want us to watch that together?
Sabby, I'll start my theraphy tomorrow. Hindi na kita mababantayan ng 24/7, pero I'll still worry about you, I'll leave my mind and heart here para may kasama ka. Make sure you'll wake up na pagbalik ko ha?
Baby, are you saying your goodbyes? Akala ko ba you'll wait til I'm ready. Hindi ko pa kaya Sab, hindi ko pa kakayanin.
My dear Jeric, sorry for causing too much pain on you.
I slowly opened my eyes, and a bright white light and 4- corner white walls welcomed my sight. So that's explains the smell of remorse and hopelessness I've been smelling this past few days. Yes, I'm definitely back at the hospital. I look to the right side of my bed and there I saw a beautiful angel sleeping on my hand, holding it tight as if his life depended on it. He seems to be uncomfortable on his position because of the shoulder injury he's nursing pero he didn't mind. He could just sleep on the couch where it was much easier for him but he chose to stay beside me kahit na naka- upo siya. Ganito na lang ba ang role ko sa buhay ni Jeric? Making him worry too much about me, making things a lot harder and complicated for him? Hangang kailangan niya kakayanin na ganito, nagtitiis? Am I even worthy of his unselfish love?
Am I strong enough to let him go or too selfish to let him stay in my miserable world?
Sab: Jeric? *shakes him*
Jeric: Sabby? BABE!!! Hay sa wakas! Okay ka lang? How are you feeling? You want me to call the doctor? Or baka gusto mo kumain? What do you want Sabby?
Sab: Relax. *smiles* 2 AM palang oh mang- iistorbo ka pa ng tao. *smiles* Bakit dyan ka natutulog?
Jeric: Okay lang naman dito ha?
Sab: Sabi mo lang okay dyan. But your eyes says otherwise. Mas sumingkit ka oh and lumalim yung eyebags moc *smiles* Gusto mo tumabi sa akin?
Jeric: I'm fine, seriously. *smiles* Okay ka na ba talaga baby? Sure kang wala kang kailangan? Doctor?
Sab: Hmmmm... Ikaw lang kailangan ko this hour baby. *smiles* Dito ka na, tabi tayo. Nahihirapan ka matulog ng naka- upo eh.
He positioned himself above me and pulled me close to his chest while hugging me tight. My safe heaven...
Jeric: Sabby, sorry. I've been a jerk, I shouldn't act that way.... Ayan tuloy. Andito ka on this bed because of me. Sorry Sabby koo..
Sab: No baby, normal naman yun eh. Siguro frustrated ka lang with everything tapos dumagdag pa ako. Sorry for putting you in that situation baby. Sorry for makimg you worry about me this past few days. Dapat ang iniisip mo nalang is yung shoulder mo pero eto ka, hindi makapag- pahinga para lang bantayan ako. Ang payat- payat ko pero ang pabigat ko sayo.
Jeric: shhhh. *kisses forehead* Never ka magiging pabigat baby. I'll drop everything just to check on you, I'll make sure you're okay. Etong shoulder ko wala lang to compared sa pag- aalala ko sayo. You're my top priority always and forever, and I like to remain in that way. Okay?
Sab: Jej, sorry dahil nung nag- away tayo ha. I didn't mean to offend you that way. Hindi naman sa gusto ko mamatay at iwan ka. Pero I want to live my life to the fullest, not confined to this 4 walls. I want to breathe fresh air and not the intoxicating hospital air. I 'm not quitting Jeje, I just accepted the truth.
