Another phan one shots;)){Discontinued}

~Nightmares~

{memo: dan has nightmares that take over his mind into the real world..}

Nightmares.

Nightmares do this thing to you where it feels as if they captivate your thoughts and feelings, drifting you into a place of udder dread and illusion. Theyll make you feel as if youre floating calmly in the ocean, then youre drowning in a cloud of awful thoughts. Sometimes, some will be worse then others. Some will grab you by the throat and drag you underneath of their cruel mind. Overall, nightmares suck, but dan seems to always get them. It doesnt matter whats going on during that day. Hell, it couldve been the best day of his life, but nightmares seem to always be with him. Some of these cruel dreams will feel as if very real, making the experience even harder to cope with. His thoughts have gotten to the point where they've transferred over to real life. At times when he doesnt need more anxiety to latch onto himself, his thoughts will spill like ink onto paper. Of course, phil isnt well aware of these thoughts and dreams. Dan doesnt tell anyone. He wont tell anyone. He cant bring it upon himself to do so. He feels as if he told phil, it would make phil hate him. Yes, theyre best friends, but theyre very, very close, and dan doesnt want to ruin it somehow. So, he stays silent. Lets his thoughts eat away at him, hurt him. He'll sometimes cry at nights because hes so afraid or unsure of all possible scenarios. His mind gives him different 'what ifs?' for him to juggle about quite frequently. Sobs shall rack his body every night, trying to stay quiet so phil doesn't notice, nor come into his room. He cares about phil too much to lose him this soon. His nightmares have been going on for quite some time now, each worse then the previous. He stays quiet though, consistently considering on telling phil, but ends up pushing that thought away. "I cant ruin what we have." Dan would tell himself, shaking as tears fell down his face, onto his sweatshirt which just so happened to be phils. He loves phil so, so much, but cant bring himself to tell him that either. So hes stuck keeping two things inside.

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"No, you loser! Give it back!" Dan yelled fondly, tackling phil to get his wii controller back. "Nope!" Phil laughed, tickling dan in a way to get him to blush, scooting off of him and sitting beside him again. "I will get that damn controller back." Dan mumbled, crossing his arms, only to hear the sound of a fond chuckle beside him. "Want your controller back, danny?" Phil asked with a smirk plastered across his face. Dan blushed slightly at the nickname, saying, "quite frankly, yes i do." "Well, here ya go." Phil told him, waving the controller in front of him. Dan reached out to grab it, when phil sat up a bit straighter, raising his arm higher so dan couldnt grab it. Dan groaned, sitting up straighter to try and grab it. When he did it, he thought about how phil probably hates him and how if he did something, phil would never talk to him again. 'Its just your thoughts dan, stop it.'  Dan told himself, shrugging it off as hes so fucking paranoid and reaching for the controller again. Then, an ongoing character from a nightmare suddenly appeared behind phil. Dan let out a short yell, swiftly moving to the corner of the couch they were sitting at. "Whats wrong?" Phil asked, his hand dropping, worry clear in his eyes. "O-oh, it was nothing. My mind playing tricks on me i g-guess." Dan stuttered, gulping a bit, looking down. Phil sighed, scooting closer to dan, wrapping his arms around him in a comforting manner. Dan sighed, leaning into him softly, closing his eyes as he tried to get the thought out of mind. Its sad, really. "You okay, dan?" Phil asked soothingly, getting dan to nod. His eyes pricked with tears as he lied to phil, feeling a lump forming in his throat. He hates lying to phil, but he has to. He feels like he's going to take away the light phil has if he tells him all of his problems. Goddamn nightmares, you win this game. "If you're okay, thats all the matters to me." Phil mumbled softly, rubbing his back in a calm motion of comfort. "Thank you." Dan mumbles back, feeling his comfort radiate off of him like a bright studio light to icecream; he felt himself melting in comfort. It was enjoying; lovely. "I think im going to go to my room." Dan told him, softly sliding out of his embrace to a standing stance, smiling at phil. Phil smiled back, then his eyes faded its smile too as they reached dans eyes. "Are you-- were you crying?" Phil asked, standing up beside dan with a worried look, crinkling his brows together. "N-no, im fine. I wasnt crying." A knot grew in his throat the more he lied to phil, his eyes watering slightly. "Are you su-" "okay im going to go to bed actually, night philly." Dan interrupted, swiftly turning around and walking towards his own room. As he entered his room, he collapsed onto the door. Tears fell down his soft, pastel shaded cheeks the more he thought about phil. "Fuck, fuck, fuck." Dan swore under his breath, more tears following afterwards. As he closed his eyes, he felt presents around him, so he opened his eyes, only to be met with his favourite reoccurring character in dreams. He gasped quietly at the sight, squeezing his eyes tightly closed to stop the image. It was as if the entire room turned black, and he was sitting by himself in there; in a void of lonesome. Then, there was a knock. Three, to be precise. Dan cried out slightly, feeling another group of tears start to stream like a waterfall over a cliff that is his face.

"Dan? Are you okay in there?"

It was phil.

Dan swiftly wiped his eyes and cheeks, standing up from the door in an instant. Sighing silently to himself, he opened the door, seeing phils worried face looking towards his own. "Yes, im fine." Dan mumbled, looking down towards phils mismatched socks; which were adorable. "No you arent dan, whats wrong?" Phil asked, tilting dans head up slightly so he would be looking at him. "Im fine." Dan whispered out, his voice slightly cracking at the end as he lied. He hates lying to him. Phil gave him a questioning look. "i hate lying to you, but i have to." Dan whispered towards him, tears forming in his eyes. "Don't lie then." Phil told him with sympathetic eyes towards him. "Phil, they tell me i have to!" Dan yelled, throwing his arms about, tears streaming down his face. "What-what do you mean, 'they tell me to?'" Phil asked, quite concerned for his friend. "Fuck, phil! You don't get it! You don't get it. My fucking thoughts and nightmares are telling me to not tell you nor anyone! I cant." Dan sobbed, clenching his fists at the side of his body, his eyes screaming help, his body staying tense. Phil looked at him as if he was crazy, backing up a bit. "You have.. certain thoughts and nightmares?" Phil asked a bit hesitantly. Dan shut his eyes, sighing, unclenching his fists as more tears roll down his pastel painted face. "Yes phil, i do." He told him weakly, sighing softly once more, wanting a void of darkness to swallow him whole so he could leave whats going on right now. Phil stayed silent, looking down at the ground. 'I may've just ruined everything.' Dan thought to himself, feeling more tears bubble over. "Its okay, dan." Phil finally said at last, getting dan to look up at him with wide, shocked eyes. "What?" He asked, confusion written neatly on his face with a sharpie. "Its okay. You can get thru this." Phil assured, going over to dan and hugging him tightly. Dan began to shake. Shake hard enough for him to collapse to the ground. He sat on his knees, looking up at phil, a smile lining both of their faces. Phil sat down on his knees beside dan, hugging him there. Dan swiftly hugged back, feeling weak hearted, yet so very loved. "Thank you." Dan mumbled softly, getting phil to embrace him more, kissing his cheek lovingly, bringing blush to spread like wildfire on both of their faces.

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(yO! is me. sorry this isnt gr8 m8 im doing my best. i hope you enjoyed this though! as school is in session, doing more one shots and such is hard to do, so sorry for the inconsistency of updating, itll be better once everything settles down with it aha. but for now, it shall take longer to make chapters, whether theyre good or not whoops. but ily all sm and good day or night depending where you live!:))