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Chapter 23 Fears

I drive into the unknown. Picking my phone, I call him. It's funny really how I didn't know where he lived. How I never even asked.
The phone rings and goes straight to voice call. F***! Yeah, I know I am cussing a lot but hey look! My life isn't a heveanly bliss either. I call again and the phone rings and goes to voice mail again. Ugh!!

I call him again and thankfully he picks up.

''Seb, what's wrong? Why weren't you picking up the call?'', I ask.

'' I am sorry, I was kinda busy. What's up?'', he vents.

''Seb where are you? I need you please. I can't...can't...do this!'', I choke on my words.

''Emma, Emma, love where are you? What's wrong?'', he asks panic seizing his voice.

'' I am....am near...the Vinston Park'', I choke out.

'' I'll be there'', he says, ''Just hold on!''

With that said, the call disconnects and I park my car near the parking lot, weeping into my hands. Why did my life have to be so pathetic? Fear, anger and distress gripped me, pulling me into unconsciousness. I struggled trying to grasp onto reality and not letting it go. I couldn't do this! Should I just end this? Leave this world? No one's going to really care! But Sebastian's face drifted in front of me. I know I shouldn't be selfish and I should think about him but he is the only person who would truly care, maybe! And Kate too perhaps and my parents, well, they will cry and then just move on with their bit of business. Travelling from continent to continent, from country to country, place to place. They will be happy alright.
I was upset and angry too but I didn't know what to do.

A sudden knock in my window brings me back to reality from my misery. Sebastian scowls into the dark shades which made me bite back a laughter.

I roll down my window, '' What you peeping at?''

''Uh....Nothing?'', he asks as a faint sheen of red adorns his cheeks while he scratches his neck, a symptom that I have observed when he feels uncomfortable.

''Get in'', I say tired as all the humour in my face drains out. Should I be ready for another cry out session? No, I wanted to be strong. I wanted to show the people around me that I am strong enough to deal with my own problems.

As he slides into the passenger seat, my body remains rigid and tensed, cold with anticipation. Will my own body betray me or will it by a chance of miracle listen to my darn brain once in a while?

''What's wrong?'', he asks.

My mouth seemed frozen, locked up. As if even if I wanted to speak I couldn't and I didn't dare for I know what will happen if I did.

Silence passes by our time as he waits patiently. I know I had to tell him that Cara was about to leave me, hell, she even hated me. My old mind mocks at me, See, you can't even rid yourself of problems and now being the annoying self you are, you finally have to include him in it and at the end some disaster is so going to make its way to you and you end up hurting him.

But I didn't want that. Should I just stay away from him? Tell him I don't really like him? Such a lie I can never spell. I should tell him cuz it also includes the 'Cortez Gang'!

''Hi!'', I finally breathe.

''Hi!", he retorts easily and eyes me by turning his torso slightly towards me so he could have a better view.

"Cara's left!", I blurt out.

His eyebrows arch together, confused. He patiently waits for me to elaborate which I was having a pretty difficult time with.

'' What exactly do you mean?"
"Cara, she's gone!", I whisper yell.
"What do you mean by that?", he asks again calmly, trying to decipher my mumbled frustrations.

"She is gone....Gone to him. Gone to Robert!", I gasp.

"You mean......", he looks at me for confirmation.

I nod, "Yes!", I whisper.

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Heylo lovelies!!!

I know I was gone for a long time....but my life was a bit busy besides more votes and comments riles me up and kicks away my procrastination. Am really sorry and that's all I got to say but continue reading!!!

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