river - bts

一

I pulled the door handle to the grocery shop as quickly as possible. I wanted to get the food I needed and fast.

I sped through the shop like lighting, other people looking at me like I was crazy. I grabbed a bunch of oranges and skipped to other fruits.

I was going so fast that I almost dropped my basket. The floors were slippery so out of fear I stopped in place. I grabbed everything else and checked off my mental list.

I hastily slammed my basket onto the checkout counter. Instead of staring at me in confusion, the lady smiled at me. Probably because of how stupid I was acting.

"You look like you're in a rush."

I blew a blue bubble out of my gum as I grabbed some more from the mini isle. She grinned and checked it out along with all the other food.

I ran my fingers through my hair as brought my credit card out to pay for it.

"Do you have a family?" She asked, placing all of the items in plastic bags that i'll never use again.

"Yeah.. sure." I muttered, taking all of them and leaving the store without another word.

I walked out onto the biggest parking lot i've ever seen in my life. It was sunset so of course not many people would be there. There were a few cars parked here and there but otherwise it looked deserted.

I ran from the parking lot into town, which didn't have that many people living in it either. The houses were as big as apartments, only with a few doors leading to other rooms. We lived there.

I got to our house number and knocked on the door. I spit out the bubble gum to the dirt because it didn't have flavor anymore.

I saw Taehyung open the door with wide arms. He had that loud voice and cute smile which I always loved. He wrapped his arms around my neck tightly, without letting me go.

"Taehyung don't choke me to death!" I laughed, smacking him with the groceries. I smiled as he pulled away, sobbing fakely like a little child.

"Well I got the groceries so be thankful-"

"Pizza coming in 30 minutes!" Hoseok yelled, running down the stairs with a phone in his hand.

"Pizza?!" Jungkook brought his attention to us, looking away from his video games.

"In 30 minutes-"

"Woah Jimin you got the groceries!"

"Well at least someone appreciates me.."

"I appreciate you!" Taehyung yelled at me, frowning.

"I was kidding." I smiled, taking the food out of the bags and placing it in the fridge.

The pizza came to our house and we all sat down at the table to enjoy it. Namjoon and Yoongi came down to eat with us. Everyone looked happy except for Namjoon.

We all ate in silence, enjoying our food. It all seemed peaceful and calm until Namjoon said,

"Guess what I did all day? Look for Jin."

I glanced at everybody else as I could feel their tension rising up. Hoseok quickly put on a smile.

"Jungkook how's school going?"

"Uh it's good-" He said quickly.

"Keeping up grades is hard." Taehyung laughed.

"I know right, school was difficult-" I was about to keep the conversation going but Namjoon slammed his hands on the table.

"Don't change the subject assholes!"

"Don't swear at the table." Yoongi said sternly.

"Nobody cares."

"Namjoon what happened?" Hoseok crossed his arms. We all stopped eating except Taehyung.

"Oh you know I was looking everywhere, of course! He's been gone for three months-"

The more words Namjoon spoke the more he sounded close to insanity.

"We know that. Can we have a peaceful dinner for once-"

"You don't care about him, do you?"

The question wasn't directed at me but I could still feel my heart drop to my stomach. Those words made me angry, as he spoke them all the time.

"What the hell do you mean-"

"You all are living your own lives without him, like everything is perfectly fine, you're forgetting him."

I clenched my fists under the table. Taehyung could see I was mad so he tried holding my hand.

"Why are you saying these things we obviously care about him-"

"You would care about him if you took the time to look for him. All you guys are doing is posting pictures like THAT'S GOING TO HELP ANYTHING-"

I almost hurt Taehyung as I brought my hands up and slammed them on the table. Every eye turned towards my direction. I yelled out and saw Jungkook jump a bit.

"This is the dumbest thing i've ever heard in my life. You're ignorant if you think we don't care. Do us all a favor and FUCK OFF!"

I let the words slip out of my mouth and immediately regretted it. I leaned back in my chair and let my eyes get filled up with tears.

Silence covered us in an instant. I couldn't even look at the other members because of how embarrassed I was. I didn't want to hear them.

I sighed deeply as I grabbed my empty plate and quickly threw it in the trash. I ran upstairs, feeling the guilty tears run down to my jawline.

I can't believe I said that, especially to my older brother.