river - bts

十四

i banged my head against the wall, crying out in pain. i felt the tears fall down my face, traveling farther down my neck.

i smacked my head repeatedly, trying to bring pain to myself, over and over again. it was the only way i could express without breaking something again.

"what are you doing?"

i stopped hurting myself, to turn around and find jimin, leaning against the doorway.

"you did this."

"what did i do-"

"jungkook isn't here anymore, because of you!"

"it was his fault to attempt suicide yoongi... not mine."

"are you fucking insane? you tried to choke-"

"i know what i did!" he yelled, making the room painfully uncomfortable.

i saw taehyung walk towards jimin. he grabbed his waist and started kissing him on the lips. jimin enjoyed it too much so he moaned every second.

"holy shit get a room." i sighed, running my hand through my hair.

"this is a room-" taehyung spoke deeply, breathing down jimin's neck. he pushed jimin on the bed i was sitting on. he started rubbing against him roughly, making the whole bed shake.

"jesus fucking christ you have no decency."

i got up as they were still fucking, despite the fact that i was still in the room. i walked towards the door, leaving the room.

"i'll close the door for you... dumbasses." i slammed the door, only to hear jimin moan louder.

i felt someone back hug me, wrapping his arms around me lightly. i saw it was hoseok, giving me affection.

"i'm sorry i had to stop jimin somehow-"

"that isn't why jungkook jumped, it's not your fault."

he let go and took me to the balcony. we sat down, looking at the view. all i could do was cry again.

"what if i jumped?" i asked.

"no don't do that... we already lost jungkook, and you have to take care of jin today."

"i don't care about jin anymore... wouldn't it be easier just to leave him alone?"

"yoongi... we can't. he's the key we need to be able to survive."

"i don't think we'll be able to anymore."

"why do you say that?"

i looked into his eyes,

"jungkook will tell them everything."