river - bts

十九

"shit shit this ain't good!!"

namjoon yelled out in shock as he saw himself. he slammed the door closed behind us. yoongi immediately starting throwing chairs near the door.

taehyung saw a wooden desk that he could pull. he kicked all the chairs out of the way and placed the desk in front of the door. we couldn't lock it so the best we could do was block him out.

yoongi placed the chairs down again, in front of the desk. they started arguing on how the hell it was going to help anything. but i grabbed onto their shirts to tell them how pointless it was.

the tension builded up in all of us when he started pounding his fist on the door. we all scattered around like crazy chickens, making a mess everywhere by pulling books out of shelfs.

"jungkook which fucking book is the right one-"

"I WILL KILL YOU ALL-" i heard namjoon's voice muffled from the outside.

"uh i have no idea it's in a book!"

"thanks for the help captain obvious there's a bunch of books-" namjoon stated.

i could hear the door breaking every time he pounded his fist onto it. each punch made my heart drop deeper and deeper down to my stomach, making me more paranoid.

"this one? ugh no-" hoseok yelled out while slamming it onto the ground.

"this isn't it either!" taehyung groaned.

"i can't see shit it's too dark to read-" yoongi closed the book out of frustration.

jungkook and hoseok ran over to the door and leaned against it, hoping to keep namjoon from coming in.

"YOU ALL WILL REGRET THIS-"

"god dammit we are running out of time!" namjoon yelled.

"this seems pointless ughhhh!" taehyung started complaining when i saw a different kind of book.

it wasn't like the others. it had this tint of light that surrounded its red cover. for some reason i was attracted to it. i knew right away that this book was the one we needed.

i immediately grabbed it out of the shelf and slammed it down on another desk. i flipped through the pages like lighting speed until i got to a page where it mentioned 'red eyed beings.'

i didn't bother to read the history behind it, nor did i care. i just wanted the answer and fast. i skimmed the page, my finger following my eyes. i finally got the answer, after like it seemed forever.

"Guys i found it!" i yelled out on the top of my lungs.

"What is it?!?! Tell us now jimin!" hoseok yelled back to me.

"YOU BETTER NOT TELL THEM YOU FUCKER-"

"it reads, 'those who are red eyed from birth, experience a phenomenon of disappearance or otherwise known as death after their individual confesses their troubles from that time period'..."

i saw the crack form in the door after namjoon was punching it continuously.

"What does that mean guys what does that mean-"

The door made a huge crack in the middle of it, breaking off a huge piece. he kicked all of the chairs and pushed the desk to the ground with incredible force.

"YOU ALL ARE SCREWED, YOU KNOW THAT! I WILL KILL YOU, STARTING WITH YOU, KIM NAMJOON-"

namjoon whipped his head over to stare straight into the other namjoon's eyes. it seemed crazy, but i felt the whole universe slow down. everybody was in slow motion, except for those two.

namjoon was left in a trace, unable to move any muscle from his body. our namjoon stood in place, still looking at him. he sadly laughed.

"look at you!" namjoon laughed again, slowly walking towards him.

"you are so aggressive, but so broken. you use this anger to cover up your true cuts, don't you,

"you remind me of my old self. i used to smoke a little, but especially drink. a lot. drinking away my problems, according to relationships, used to be a breeze for me,

"but at the time i didn't realize how intoxicating it was for me, literally and figuratively. i thought if i drank, the whole world would become easier, but it was quite the opposite,

"you are evil. drinking made you evil. you did to yourself, you ruined yourself. you hurt yourself, and that resulted in hurting others around you,

"i hope you feel proud about yourself, how you placed your mark on the world. i hope you realize there's so much more to life than self-loathing, and still, i find myself hurting my friends. my brothers."

he walked up close enough, standing only a few inches away from him.

"i'm sorry, namjoon." namjoon smiled sadly as he wrapped his arms around him. once he did that, we saw the namjoon of this world dissolve into a pile of ash.

we broke out of the slow motion trance, and the movement seemed back to normal. i looked at namjoon, holding out his arms, only to be treated with leftovers of himself.

"i think i finally understand how to make them disappear..." hoseok muttered.

"yeah.." namjoon sobbed, rubbing the fluid of tears out of his eyes.

i skipped over to him and wrapped my arms around him to give him a big hug. i could see tears falling from his eyes. i heard him sobbing as well. he tried to keep it in, but he just couldn't.

"i love you jimin... i'm so sorry..."

"namjoon, it's alright. we can talk about it later, right now we have to worry about jin."

"uh okay-" i let go of him so that he could have arm room to wipe the tears off of his face.

we all exchanged looks at each other.

"we know what we have to do now."