river - bts

九

"JIMIN!"

I heard the call of my name muffled by the water. For a few moments I had no idea where I was, until I realized what had happened.

I saw myself in this weird world, and then the wind blew me off the edge and I passed out.

Now it seemed like I was back in the real world, I felt my eyes hurting and my legs so weak, drowning in the water. I freaked out and started kicking and flailing my arms around.

someone pulled me out of the water, placing my body on the ground. they wrapped their arms around me in a hug. the warm touch of his skin seemed too familiar.

I looked up and saw Taehyung. It seemed like he was about to throw up, either from crying or the fact that it took so much energy to pull me out.

"I'm sorry-" I tried to speak but he interrupted me by softly touching his lips with mine. it felt warm and comfortable against mine, cold and lifeless.

then he embraced me in a tight hug. All I could do was stare off into the distance. I looked around with my eyes and saw that Jungkook, Yoongi and Hoseok were here as well.

Why would they be here?

"Thank you.." I muttered.

Then, I suddenly got flashbacks. Flashbacks of the other version of me. When he looked at me with his piercing rose colored eyes that caused my whole body to freeze at his presence.

I pushed him away and moved myself backwards in fear. I didn't want to be held by anybody, I was too paranoid that he would come back.

Taehyung looked saddened, while Jungkook and Hoseok looked concerned. They started to ask if I was okay while Yoongi just had this look on his face. Like he didn't know me anymore.

"Come on, let's go back.." Taehyung helped me up and wrapped his arm around me. I was limping on my right foot, somehow I twisted my ankle.

"It's alright walk it off.." Hoseok patted my back and walked along side me. Jungkook ran his fingers through my hair. I looked back and smiled at him, he didn't deserve me.

None of them did.

My smile suddenly dropped when I saw Yoongi. He was still sitting there, watching us walk back to the house. I wanted to ask him what he was doing, but I couldn't muster a word.

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"Jimin, come here!" Yoongi smiled, skipping down the street. We were walking to the local park, that was filled with flowers and trees. Better yet, at the time it had playground.

"i'm coming!" I laughed, running towards him, jumping on his back. We've known each other for five years, teenagers at the time.

"Ah!" He giggled, stopping in his place. He bent over so he wouldn't drop me. He held my legs using his hands so he could give me a piggyback ride.

He was slow, and the others were complaining about it, but we didn't care. When we got to the park, he placed me on the ground and guided me towards the playground.

"Look over there-"

he pointed to a young boy wearing glasses, while reading a book of some sort. He seemed so into it, like it was his favorite hobby. i felt envious, i couldn't focus on a book that much even if i tried.

"That's my friend, Namjoon. I wanted you to meet him." He smiled, grabbing my hand.

"Alright, he seems nice."

We walked over to him. He looked up to us and closed his book.

"Who's this?" He glanced at me.

"I'm Jimin, Yoongi and I met at a birthday party."

"I wasn't invited?" He asked.

"Oh no, it was Jungkook's birthday party. You don't know him."

"I was kidding, I know." He got up and friendly pushed Yoongi.

"Nice to meet you, Jimin." He smiled.

"You too Namjoon." It was kind of awkward, your friend setting a meet up with his other. At least it's better than a complete stranger.

"What should we do?" Yoongi asked.

"What about ice cream?" I asked.

"That sounds great!" he yelled.

"Calm down, it's just ice cream."

"Oh come on Namjoon, you like ice cream too."

"I do," he grabbed his book, "I try not to get too excited about it. i'm going to get fat."

"We're young, we don't gain weight that easily yet."

"Who told you that?"

"My mom."

"Well let's enjoy it while it lasts-" Namjoon laughed, walking towards the direction of the ice cream.

We giggled and followed behind him. Yoongi wrapped his arm around me, and rested his head while we were walking.

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I came back to myself eating vanilla ice cream. I took a shower and let myself rest, so i felt a little bit better, physically. Mentally, I still wanted to cry and drown myself again.

I stirred the ice cream around, like it was white soup. I heard someone walking down the stairs, which caused my paranoia. I whipped my head around just to find Jungkook.

"oh come on, just drink a milkshake then!" Jungkook said playfully while laughing.

"I'm taking forever to eat it."

Jungkook sat down in the seat next to me, looking at the pictures hanging on the walls. I looked at him and I couldn't believe how grown up he was getting.

"Remember when we moved in here?" He smirked, flicking a crumb on the countertop.

"Yeah.. it was a nice place." I took a bite of my ice cream, swallowing it because it was that soupy.

"It's still a nice place... you okay?" He caught me crying silently. I wiped the tears off of my face and continued eating my ice cream, without saying anything.

I wasn't okay.. I was thinking about how Namjoon hated me so much. I was thinking about the past and our relationships. I was thinking about that other world I entered.. how I saw myself...

"I'm fine."

Jungkook got up from his seat and back hugged me. He started humming something, which I couldn't understand, but it was calming otherwise.

"I don't say this a lot.. but i love you brother. remember that please, we all do."

Are you sure everyone loves me?

"Thank you.." I smiled. He let go of me and walked over to the fridge, grabbing a yogurt.

"I stay silent most of the time, and i feel bad for leaving you in the dust like this.. so I made you ice cream, it's my apology."

I laughed silently and had the energy to finish it because of that message.

"Don't worry.. thank you for being there when I got saved from the river.." I put my empty bowl in the sink.

"Taehyung got so worried, I was actually scared." He said, taking a bite.

"I need to apologize to him-"

"don't worry.. none of us are mad at you."

"are you sure?" I hissed. Jungkook looked at me in confusion. Then he realized while finishing his snack. He took a huge deep breath in.

"I don't know what's wrong with Namjoon, okay? he's got some issues."

"It's because Jin is gone..." I muttered, crossing my arms, leaning next to him.

"We are acting like he's dead..." Jungkook stated.

I sighed deeply as I turned my head to look into my younger brothers eyes.

"We don't know if he is."