Love... Why it so hard (Forth ♡ Beam)

Contrition

Beam P.O.V

I wake up having slight headache and found myself hugging Forth.... no wonder I felt so comfort. what's the time now.. it looks so bright... Ohh it's noon. Forth is still sleeping. mmm... last night. it'... while thinking I start blushing... okay, let me take bath and prepare something to eat.

Forth P.O.V   

I woke up from sleep and found in different place... I try to figure out what happen and remember the night... ohhh I shouldn't do that. How am i going to face him. Wait... where is beam.. 

Beam: Uh... Forth ... Finally you wake up. Go take your shower and lets have lunch. I prepared a simple lunch. 

Forth: okay... okay

Beam P.O.V

From his look.. I can tell he is thinking something but why he feeling upset maybe regarding yesterday night... okay i will act like i don't remember anything so he can feel better. I can't see his face like this. He comes close to me and call my name...

Forth: Beammmmmmmmm......

Beam:( That voice is enough to kill me... ) Yes forth... go shower first, then we talk. 

<<<<After shower... Lunch time>>>>

Beam: Forth... see is it enough for you... (his face still like that...MMM)

Forth: Beam... about last night . mm..mm 

Beam: Yaaa... I want to ask what happen. How we come home and is my car still park there... I don't remember anything. 

Forth: (what he doesn't remember anything) yes, we come come by cab even my bike is there. Later we go and get it. 

Forth's P.O.V
Although he doesn't remember anything... i'm not feeling okay. I should inform him what happen then only I can seek for apologize but by informing him... how if he hates me.. ohh no i can't bear it. I need some advice... Yes lam is correct person to discuss about.    

<<<< later in evening >>>>

Lam: Yes, Forth whats the matter you want to discuss about.

Forth: Lam, I have fallen in love with a guy. 

Lam: Beam right...

Forth: uhhh.... how do you know... Did I mention it when i'm drunk.

Lam: Forth, I'm your best friend since childhood. Is very easy for me to feel the difference when you with others and when beam is with you. You are totally different. Your eyes is only looking for him, your smile, the way u talk to him... everything about you towards him is so different. I even never see you like this with any girls before, so it's easy for me to guess.

Forth: hmmm... I know him for months and is going to be a year but i haven't propose or tell him my feeling... I afraid he will hate me ... i want him badly. 

Lam: Forth, you know its very surprise to see you like this. You are always the bravest and bold in our group. It's really awkward to hear afraid from you.

Forth: I know Lam... but this boy and boy relationship is something new for me and it's so hard to express as I know beam only dates girls. 

Lam: Forth, just remember... girl or boy it doesn't matter. Do you love him truly... that what matters. If you didn't said it to him... how he will know.  Although after you proposed he reject you... you can still chased over him. At least he know your intention rather than using friendship as shield. But believe me forth... true loves always win. 

Forth: Lam... I know it all but how if he avoid me. That will hurt me badly. I'm not sure I cant take it or not. 

Lam: Forth, what i can say is... from what I saw. It seems beam also got feeling for you. Although there got many people in the party yesterday... He looks for you and be with you. Maybe just spitted it out. Maybe he also wondering like you. If that is the case... you guys will be wasting the time. 

Forth: Lam, I'm not sure about that but now I make my mind no matter what happen. I will propose to him. Not now... let finish our finals. Then, I will propose to him. Thanks Lam. I get my courage's back. 

Lam: No mention buddy.. I just wants you to be happy.