Califuckinfornia

IV.

Califuckinfornia

Vanity 

Wednesday was when I saw CJ and Thursday I had off so today was now Friday which meant this was the first night I was going to be at Dad's house watching over it. I guess there was an attempted break in at one of the houses in that community not too long ago so until security is reinforced there, Dad said he would appreciate me watching over and I owe him at least that for lending over the two million. Honestly I don't owe him a thing but two million is a lot of money and he could have easily said no. Not to mention now I have unlimited channels on a large flat screen above the fireplace so why not? 

I didn't like the fact I was going to be away from Trellis but hey, a little space is never a bad thing and then when I come back to see him its a lovely feeling. 

Though I never told him I went out to grab a bite with CJ, I just didn't feel a need to tell him. In a way it felt like my little secret but not a bad secret as nothing other than catching up happened. I have to say though, since seeing CJ I've been in a better mood, more at ease knowing he was okay just like Rack City. My concern and worry for Chastity was still there but I had a gut feeling I was going to find her no problem after this weekend when I'm done at Dad's house. 

"I'm gonna miss you tonight." Trellis said as he came down the stairs to the living room area. I had been on my phone actually texting CJ for a bit since he surprised me by texting back after I sent him a simple 'Hi'. "What's got you smilin'?" Taking a seat next to me on the couch, I closed out of my messages because I didn't want him snooping through my business as I don't snoop through his. 

"I going to miss you too but I'm not too far away and we always have FaceTime if we get lonely." I said and he wrapped an arm around me, pulling me close so my head was now resting on his chest. "I'm smiling because I'm just overall in a better mood knowing in just a few days I'm going to find my sister." That wasn't a lie, that was a big part of my happier mood and then the smaller part was that I've got an old friendship back that I hope turns out better than the first time. 

I can say I have no desire or feelings to be with CJ anymore as I've moved onto Trellis. That isn't my concern, there's no possibility that I would cheat on Trellis- why would I? Trellis is wonderful to me in terms of my happiness being a priority to him, he's working regular jobs so I don't have to worry about him getting caught doing anything he shouldn't, has never once raised his voice at me that wasn't in a playful manor, only thing I don't particularly like is the clingy aspect of him but its not like its a deal breaker for me. However, I see nothing wrong with being friends with CJ much like how Trellis is still friends with Elvia. I just don't want to tell him about the rekindled friendship in fear he might question his trust in me or start to become even more clingy or controlling to make sure I'm not sneaking around with CJ- I'm probably just thinking way too much into this and am creating my own problems in my head. I tend to do that too much and need to learn to stop because then I get all flustered and weird. 

"You're for sure set on goin'?" I nodded without the slightest bit of hesitation. "Baby Girl, I'm all for you goin' to find your sister, that ain't the problem but its you drivin' up there all by yourself that has me a little worried. I don't mind comin' along and I know you don't want me meetin' her yet but I can promise you she not gonna get me smokin' meth or downin' a bottle upon meetin' her like you're so worried about." 

"Why are you worried? I've been on the drive multiple times and know where to go, its a straight shot up there. Its more of I don't want you building a bad impression of her while she's in not such a good place in her life. I love her a lot and want you to enjoy her as well."