Love or hate

What goes on in my world

"Okay," I told myself. I had to get myself together, I had to act like I didn't see Erick yesterday. I have to act like he wasn't making out with that girl......if I keep pretending it didn't happen, maybe I'll stay believing it. Seems to me all I do is pretend. Pretend everything is okay, pretending it would matter if I ever disappeared. would someone be missing me? or would I be just another dead soul. someone that everyone would forte about as if I moved to Antarctica instead of died. I walked into school that morning with a calm face. I didn't have much friends but I sat with the math geniuses they were pretty cool and didn't judge. After my best-friend Ashley moved to Miami, Florida I've had no friends. my parents don't usually question me about my school life. If they do it's about my grades or teachers. Nothing important like, how many friends do you have? or do you have any at all?. Plus they are usually at work so I act like I had a "friend" over that day. so pretty much what I'm trying to say is my life is made out Of lies. Ones that can't be proved because no one really pays me attention. I don't have to worry about getting caught up in a lie in a world all to myself. I'm like the autumn leaf If I fall of a branch someone comes around and crushes me. But instead of feet it is life that is crushing me. Life is harmful, but holding your breath doesn't solve anything.