It's Me

Chapter 6

~*~Quick note for yall I just joined tennis so that I have something to do in the fall then conditioning in the winter and soccer in spring. As school is coming up this probably wont be updated as often as I'd like, but when I have time I'll get right on it. And awwwaaaayyyy we go :)~*~

Alex's POV

Tobin didn't mean that. She couldn't. She liked someone? She liked a girl? I mean that's not bad I do too, but, like, why? It sounds bad but why doesn't she like me? I'm a girl. Why doesn't she just ask me out already?

Cuz she doesn't like me. That's why. She'd never like me. I like shopping and being a girly-girl. I always wanna look my best, no matter who's around. I'm not the strongest on this team, both physically and mentally. I will breakdown in front of you if there's something up.

Tobin's the opposite. She's not a girly-girl. She's a tomboy. She doesn't like shopping and when she goes, she gets only what she needs and gets out of there fast. She doesn't care how she looks. She's one of the strongest people I've met, if not the strongest. She won't cry in front of you.

There's no way I'd have a chance with her. We just aren't made for each other.

I'd love to be together.

I run into the locker room and try to hide the tears I didn't know were there. I tried avoiding everyone. I didn't make any eye contact, and I got dressed fast and basically sprinted to the hotel that was down the street from the stadium.

"Alex! Wait up!" Oh no.

Tobin.

Luckily, I had my headphones in playing some sad music because I was in that kinda mood and I pretended like I didn't hear her. There was no way I could face her, not right now.

Just then I feel my headphone pop out of my right ear and feel a kiss on my cheek.

"Hey there beautiful." Tobin flashed her million dollar smile. (~*~ITS NOT TALEX UNTIL TOBIN FLASHES HER MILLION DOLLAR SMILE~*~)

"Whatcha listening to?" She bounced along next to me. She seemed really happy. Which sucked because I know I can never be the reason why.

"To be honest Tobs, I'm listening to some sad music." I looked at her with hurt eyes, which was terrible because I felt tears rising up within me.

Her face dropped immediately. She pulled me into a big hug. "Lex, what's wrong?"

"I don't know, I'm just depressed. It came out of nowhere," I was lying, but she bought it. "I just wanna go lay down and nap."

She seemed to get nervous. "Uh, okay? You need to go have lunch first. Tony wouldn't be happy on you missing out and I'm worried what would happen if you didn't get food in you." She pulled back slightly and lifted my chin up using her finger, making me look at her. "I don't want to lose you, Lex."

I nodded, trying not to cry, and pulled back from the hug completely. I wanted to kiss her, trust me, I would've, but if she has feelings for someone else, I'm not gonna stop her. She deserves to be happy and I'm not gonna try to stop that. Why would a woman like her find anything likable about a kid like me?

She grabbed my hand, intertwined our fingers, and squeezed. I gave her a reassuring look, and we walked in silence back to the hotel. I just needed to crash. Or cry. Or eat a ton of chocolate. Or just make out with Tobin.

Sadly, I can't do any of that now, or maybe ever.