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12: Why Now? And Not Then?

"Hey, uh, Ginny." Harry says and I turn to look at him before he continues with what he was going to say. "Can I talk to you, in private?"
"Sure." I say, wanting to make sure that he doesn't suspect that I know anything, as I get up from my place on the couch. "Wanna talk outside?"
"Yeah." Harry agrees with a quick nod and a nervous tone of voice.
The two of make our way outside and I can feel both Ron and Hermione looking at us with expressions of curiosity. And I know that they'll make me fess up whatever he's about to tell me later, which I won't refuse to do.
"So, what do you want to talk to me about? Is something wrong?" I ask? feigning ignorance.
"No, well, uh, yes! Something is wrong, something is very wrong!" Harry exclaims, catching me off guard, as I expected him to be a bit more calm about whatever he wants to talk to me about. "Why? Why do I feel like this? I don't understand? Why now? And why not when it actually made sense and mattered, UGH!"
"Well I can't exactly answer your questions unless I know what your talking about. So are you gonna spit it out of is this just going to be a waste of my time?" I ask, sounding ruder and bitchier than what I had intended to sound like, but I decide to just leave it, as him acting all theatrical is rather annoying and uncalled for.
"I like you! Okay! I really really really like you! For fuck's sake!" Harry yells, an for a minute I'm speechless because I wasn't actually expecting him to tell me how he was actually feeling.
"You had your chance, you did, and you  blew it." I say, not comfortable with the harshness in my tone. "So don't expect me to just drop everything because you, the 'chosen one' said that you like me. I am with Blaise now and I love him, and there's nothing you can do to change that. And so help me god, if you do anything to ruin things with him, he won't be the only person you'll have to worry about."
"You think I would do that stuff too you? Now that your finally happy, even after everything that's happened. I could never do that. Just please, please don't hate me." Harry pleads, and for a second, just for a second, I almost feel bad for him.
He has lost almost everything that he has ever cared about. So that must make him extremely possessive over the things that he still does have.
"Are you and Draco still together?" I ask, hoping that they're still together so he has another, and bigger, reason to keep his hands off of me.
"Yes, but he isn't to happy with me at the moment. He wants me too chose, between the two of you. And I chose him because I know that I can never have you." Harry says and he almost sounds sad.
"You made the right choice. Can we go inside now? I'm freezing." I say as we both forget to bring coats outside with us, which is a really dumb thing to do in the middle of the damn winter.
"Yeah, sure." Harry says before opening the door for me, and we both walk back inside, and I almost have the urge to run to where Hermione and Ron are to tell them what just happened, but luckily I refrained from doing so.

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"What happened when the two of you went outside earlier?" Ron asks me when it's just him, Hermione and I in the living room as Harry went to bed a little under an hour ago.
"He told me how he felt. About me, and he said that him and Draco are having a domestic." I say, and by reading both of their facial expressions I decide to keep going. "Draco wanted Harry to chose between him and me, and Harry chose him because, and these are his exact words; And I chose him because I know that I can never have you."
"Wow, okay. So this proves what? That he won't do or try anything? The Harry we all know doesn't give up that easily, something else happened that he isn't willing to tell any of us. I wonder what it is." Hermione says, digesting what I just said and running with it.
"Me too. Me too." Ron says, and it feels that we're all on the same page, or so I hope.