dark minds [completed]

im so done

you know what?

im sick of trying to be strong when all i wanna do is slash my fucking skin to pieces and watch the blood flow.

you know what? 

im sick of trying to be good enough for others when everything i do just gets thrown back in my face, it just makes me question why i even bother

you know what?

yeah im a fucked up, worthless cunt who deserves nothing but pain but i already KNOW that, you don't have to keep fucking reminding me

you know what? 

im so fucking done with your bullshit lies 

"its not you its me" 

well clearly its me, how fucking dumb do i look to you? 

you know what?

i dont get why everyone calls me "strong" im not even close to be fucking strong, i mean, do you know me? when something goes wrong or i get stressed out or im in a shit mood i turn to alcohol i mean, thats not exactly being "strong" is it? 

also, i have mental breakdowns like all the fucking time. im not a happy person, i hate being trapped inside my mind and all i am is a fucking failure and i hate myself. 

you know what?

once again im losing control, and this time there's going to be no one there to save me

and so what?

this time, i dont fucking care.