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For a while now I had those feelings towards a certain raven-haired girl. I didn't know what, but something about her made me drawn to her since the first time I saw her. I was confused, never had felt like that towards anybody before, not even boys.
As hard as I tried I couldn't tear my eyes off of her. She was the most beautiful human being I've ever laid eyes on. I remember how my body seemed to stop working. It was impossible to breathe, or speak; even hearing was difficult. I'm pretty sure my heart didn't beat either. It was like she put a spell on me. Days, even weeks, later I still couldn't get her out of my head. Being around her got harder and harder each day passing, always smiling like an idiot, who has never gotten a word out without stuttering. That's why I tried to avoid her most of the time, not wanting to embarrass myself any further.
"Hey, Y/N/N." I froze hearing the very familiar voice. I hesitantly lift my head to look at the girl, who was talking to me. "Hey, Ronnie," I said, trying to sound as distant as possible. But it was hard to fight off the smile, that was making its way on my lips. It faded immediately when I realized what my body was doing. "Do you want to hang out after school?" she asked, sounding a bit nervous.
"I actually can't today. But we can do that some other time, yeah?" I said a little too fast, standing up in a hurry and grabbing my things. My chest ached at the thought of her being hurt by my actions, but I had to do this. Sighing I opened the door to the girls' bathroom. "Dammit, Y/N," I curse under my breath. My eyes stared at myself through the mirror. "Why does everything have to be so difficult?" I muttered, rubbing my face in frustration.
I heard the door open and how someone entered the room. "We need to talk," the voice sounds pissed. I turned my head to the right, seeing my brother, Kevin. "Not now, Kev," I sighed. "Now is the perfect time to talk," he hissed. His tone took me by surprise. He never talked to me like this. "Alright, what is it?" I asked, now fully turned to him. "You have to stop treating Veronica like shit."
"I don't know what you're talki-," I began to say, but got cut off. "Oh, cut the crap, Y/N. You know exactly what I am talking about. You're avoiding her for weeks now for no reason. What is wrong with you?" His eyes were fixed on my face. I didn't even think about giving him an answer. I just let my gaze sink to the ground. Guilt began to eat me from the inside. He took a deep breath in, showing how upset he is.
"For God's sake, open your mouth already and tell me why you're like this," he said, desperately trying to get me to talk to him. His face was softer now, not looking full of anger. "I can't," I whispered, still looking at the ground. "What do you mean by you can't?" he asked confused. "I just can't, okay?" I raised my voice out of frustration. "I'm worried about you, Y/N. You're not that kind of person. Please, tell me what's going on." The desperation in his voice grew. "But I'm afraid, Kev," I whispered; my voice slightly breaking. My eyes started to get wet.
"Afraid of what?" he asked, worry filling his eyes. I kept my mouth shut, already regretting that I've said too much. "Whatever it is, you can talk to me. I just want you to feel like you can trust me with anything that's eating you alive," my brother said softly, wrapping his arms around me, and hugging me tightly. As I hold onto him tears were escaping my eyes, wetting my cheeks. We stood there hugging each other for a little while; a comfortable silence surrounding us.
"I like her... Veronica, I mean. Like a lot," I mumbled into Kevin's chest, tightening my grip even more. He didn't say a word, waiting for me to finish. "I like her for a while now." Kevin started to caress my head. Before I continued to speak I took a deep breath. "I've been afraid that people might think I'm copying you because I wanted attention. Also how high is the possibility for Ronnie to like me back?"
Kevin pushed me softly away to look me in the eyes. His hands took my face; his right thumb wiping the small tears away, that were still left under my eye. "Oh, Princess. No one's gonna think you're copying me. Your sexuality is nothing to be ashamed of. And for your information, Veronica won't stop talking about you. She's so into you, believe me. And now, go and make me proud."
I pressed a peck on his cheek and thank him before leaving the room and making my way to the cafeteria, hoping to find Veronica there. The universe must have been on my side because she still sat on the table talking to Archie, Jughead, and Betty. I felt how nervousness filled my body, making my legs all shaky. "Veronica. Do-do you have a second?" My breath was fast, my heart beating like there was no tomorrow. I fiddled with my hands, trying to calm myself down.
All eight eyes were on me now, making me even more nervous. "Sure," she smiled, standing up. "Let's go somewhere quieter, yeah?" I asked with a lightly shaking voice. We left the cafeteria, searching for an empty classroom. I opened the door when I found on, waiting for Veronica to enter the room first. "What is it you wanted to talk about?" the raven-haired girl asked, looking straight in my eyes.
Before I replied I inhaled deeply, hoping it would better the stuttering. "Do you want to have dinner with me? You don't have to say yes. I understand I treated you like shit the past couple weeks and you probably don't even like me like that. I know you deserve better but I really want to make it up to you. I wouldn't go out with me either an-" My bubbling got interrupted by soft lips touching mine.
After I needed a few seconds to process what was happening, I closed my eyes, clearly enjoy the feeling of her lips. All I focus on was the girl right in front of me. My hands made their way to her waist, pulling her even closer to my body. She licked my lower lip, asking for entrance. Gladly I opened my mouth. Our tongues played with one another for a bit before we had to disconnect our lips due the lack of oxygen.
"That," I started to say but I couldn't think of anything so I just said, "Wow." The girl in front of me just smiled, "You were talking too much." A huge smile formed on my face. I probably looked like the happiest person, who has ever lived. But to be honest I also felt like that person. "I'd like to get cut off more often if it's like this," I said. "I can arrange that," Ronnie winked.
"You wanna skip the last 2 lessons and have that date you promised me?" she asked, taking my hand in hers. "I couldn't think of any better," I agreed. When we opened the door 3 people fell in the room; the only on who was standing was Jughead. "Were you guys eavesdropping?" I laughed, feeling how my cheeks got warmer. A chorus of No, of course not's followed. "But seriously I'm so happy for you two. I wondered how long it would take you," Archie said. "Thanks, Archiebald," Ronnie smiled, squeezing my hand lightly. I was sure the smile on my face won't go away any time soon.
