JENNY

(#7 | A Case of Sadness)

I'm quite sad. I realize that my anger was sparked by own realization if what life has to be like. Depressing. It sucks to be like this. I just don't understand. Out of all the people in this world, why does it have to be me. I want to explore the world with positivity, instead of sadness. But my DDP's are my only pathway to happiness. Again, I state that my case is mild, thank the lord. Though it doesn't mean it's not there. How do people deal with things like this? I'll give props to those people who have lived a long time with bipolarity, because feeling sad and lonely all the time really does suck.

My whole world is slowly being flipped around. My parents have been arguing more than ever, making me even more depressed. I never knew that other people's arguing could ruin my own mentality. Who would of known. Also, my sister has been really ignorant and annoying lately. She's been such a pain to my parents. I think that's why my parents have been so mad. It's all just a chain reaction. I hate it. All of it.

In other cases, I have been less social than I have ever been. I've basically ignored the fact that people think I'm weird and just focused on my future. Or at least trying to focus on my future.. If I even have one. Though, I guess, surviving school on an everyday basis is the best I can do. Going through the same schedule can be a bore sometimes but there's no choice to my life, so that's what I'm stuck with. Oh Jenny, your life sucks. When will you be generally happy because I really don't think I will ever be again.