Will Of The Ocean [Sebastian x reader]

Something to cry for

    We stopped in front of a beautiful mansion. The doors were open, waiting for guests to come and enter the ball room. Some women were outside, smoking and laughing loudly, with sparkly dresses and strong parfumes. As we stepped outside the carriage, everyone looked at us with curious eyes. I could hear whispers like 'that's lord Phantomhive', 'who's that woman', 'such a handsome butler wasted on a child' and things like that. We entered the big, pink and baby blue decorated room and I started to feel dizzy. Too many strangers in the same room, everything was loud, shiny and I felt out of place. But the room wasn't the loudest thing, oh no. A little girl, with green, bright eyes and blonde hair was the loudest thing I have ever experienced  in my life. She jumped on Ciel like it was his last day on earth and spinned him around. She smiled and waved at Sebastian and then looked at me with courious eyes.

     -Elizabeth, this is Eve Adolf, she's an old friend of mine, Ciel said as the blonde girl smiled to me. She was kinda cute when she wasn't yelling and jumping around.

     -It's a pleasure to meet you miss Adolf, my name is Elizabeth  Midford and I'm Ciel's fiance. I hope you'll enjoy your night here, she flashed a huge smile and left with Ciel to dance. Midford? Did I hear that name before? As I was lost in my mind, Sebastian came and put his hand on my waist, waking me up. He was smiling at me, but at the same time his face showed something else. I wanted to ask if something was wrong, but Ciel came back and demanded something awful. He wanted me to sing something for his dance with lady Elizabeth. I said that i didn't want to, but she asked me too and since it was her birthday... I couldn't refuse. I hate kids.

     I was standing on the big stairs, with a violin in my hand. Every pair of eyes in that room was on me. I hate this kind of attention so much. I felt like I could explode in any moment. Ciel noded in my direction, I had to begin.

     -Welcome everybody to the Midford estate. My name is Eve Adolf, please, let's welcome our beautiful couple, lord Ciel Phantomhive and his fiance lady Elizabeth Midford. A round of applause was heard and the couple got in the middle of the room. I was shaking like a mad man, at least some eyes were not on me from now on. The lights suddenly turned off and the only source of light was in the middle of the room, over the lord and his fiance. I looked over to Sebastian and he winked at me, oh you damn lovely bastard, how you know everything. I smiled to him and began to sing, my gaze locked on his red, beautiful eyes:

          Oh Lord, Oh Lord, what do I do?

          I've fallen for someone who's nothing like you

          He's raised on the edge of the devil's backbone

          Oh I just wanna take him home

     Ciel and Elizabeth began to dance, slowly, smiling to each other lovely. I watched them, happy that Ciel found someone to love him so madly, but after that a tear escaped my eyes. I was mad, mad that I couldn't save his family, mad that he had to sell his soul to a demon, mad that someday, he will have a family that will remain without a father, mad that I was alive, that I left Vincent alone when I knew the Queen was insane. Sebastian saw that change in my face, and he looked at me worried. I had to finish quickly before I would snap in tears. 

         Give me the burden, give me the blame

        I'll shoulder the load, and I'll swallow the shame

        Give me the burden, give me the blame

        How many, how many Hail Marys is it gonna-- take?

     The song ended and I ran outside, Sebastian following me, Ciel and Elizabeth bowed to the public and a long round of applause was heard from miles away.

       I ran until I was blind in tears. I fell to my knees on hard rock, blood everywhere, crying like a newborn child. Sebastian was there, sitting and hugging me silently. We sat there for what felt like hours until  my eyes were dry. I looked up and met his beautiful, red gaze. He said nothing, buy he kissed me on my head, rocking me back and forth and crushing me in his embrace. 

      -Ciel, he looks so much like his father. Sebastian, everything is my fault  this kid is going to die because of me. 

      -Eve, you have done nothing wrong-

      -Sebastian! I left him when he needed me, I left them kill him and his family! I left his child sold his soul to a demon. How can I live like this? I think I'm going mad.

      -Eve, you were his friend and you knew he loved you. You've done the best thing for him, he married and had a family. You have no fault, you can't control destiny!

     -Sebastian is right, you have no control over destiny. We looked over and saw Ciel, looking at me with a concerned look. He kneeled down and whipped my nose. It's not lady like to cry like that. I laughed.

     -You know I'm not a lady, I said smiling at him. Sebastian got up and helped me too as Ciel turned around and began to walk.

     -Oh, and Eve? his blue eye shining bright right into my soul

     -The contract between me and Sebastian was my choice. It's not your fault my family died, I will take my revenge on the people that hurt me, so stay back and enjoy the show. His smile was evil and full of confidence, he looked like Vincent so much it scared me.

     We went back inside. Elizabeth stole Ciel and I remained alone with the demon. He took my hand and gently sppined me so we were face to face.

     -Can I have this dance, miss Adolf? I laughed and began to dance, slowly, like we were the only people in the room.

     -That song, was lovely, was it dedicated to someone? He smirked at me, his eyes were filled with mistery and his voice was raspy.

     -Would it make you happy if I said yes. I asked with a seductive voice, getting closer to his body. He lifted me up and spinned around, I felt dizzy and hugged him tight. He stopped and left me down, gently squeezing my hand.

     -I would die from happiness, he whispered in my ear with a lustful voice. My entire body reacted to his voice. We shared a last gaze and went to find Ciel.

     The party was over and lady Elizabeth insisted for us to stay the night. Ciel accepted as he was pretty tired for an entire ride home. Me and Sebastian had to share a room, it wasn't a problem at all, we shared a bed in the past, but today, it felt strange. The butler helped Ciel for the night and I dressed in a night dress in the meantime. When he entered the room, the whole atmosphere felt suffocating. We looked at each other and for the first time in a long long time I felt that desire, that lust-

     -Eve, are you alright? he came closer to me, too close for my comfort. We were so close I could feel his breath on my face. That's it, I'm done. I spinned him and he fell on the bed, me on top of him kissing him, more like eating him alive. He gasped for air and looked at me with huge eyes.

     -I did not expect this, he said while putting his hands on my hips.

     -You didn't like it? he smirked and shoved me under him.

     -You'll regret this in the morning.

Song:  The Civil War - Devil's backbone