Will Of The Ocean [Sebastian x reader]

Back in black

     We looked at each other until there was a knock at the door. Sebastian entered the room with a curious expresion. Ciel turned his back at me and began to speak.

     -Thank you for the information Eve, Sebastian, help miss Adolf pack her things, she can go back home-

     -What? Why would you say that? You don't trust me? You know that I want to help you-

     -This is an order! Sebastian... The butler looked in my direction, he had to follow the order. I was angry, oh, so angry.

     -You little piece of shit! Who do you think you are? Know your damn place boy, you are a Phantomhive but you are not your father. You can't command me. I came here with a mission, so don't get in my way. I stormed out of the room and slamed the door. That cocky bastard, I knew it wasn't a good idea to come here, I've left my feelings get me. I was broken. He knows that I would never lie to him, so why would he send me home? And the big problem now is what do I do? I need to leave the house, but where to go? I can't go back until the case is closed, even if I'm pretty sure this is the hand of the Queen.

     I was ready to leave, until a certain butler entered my room with a troubled face. We stared at each other, I'm going to miss him so much, I knew there was no future for us, but it still makes me cry. I tried to smile, but failed miserably. He came in front of me and strocked my cheek, then kissed me slowly. 

     -Look Eve, I have to obey my master's wish, but I want you to know that we will see each other again. When my contract is done, I will come for you, until then, he kissed me again, with his eyes shining a pink shade, farewell. 

     I walked away from the Phantomhive manor. Again. I was angry, broken and deeply hurt. That evil cunt needs to know that her place is in hell. But I can't kill her. Not now. Ciel knows the truth, but what will happen now? Is he going to trust me? I need to watch his action, but I can't get too close, or Sebastian will sense me. This situation is so difficult. The rain started to pour as warm tears falled down my cheek. I was tired and wet. They came into my life like a storm, in the worst moment. I have to do something and I don't know what. I hate this life so much. I wish I never left my ship. I have to go back, Joseph must be worried. I miss my crew, my family, my father, my life. I wanted to be happy and what did I receive? Painful immortality. A life of regret where I have to see the ones that I love die before me. I slapped myself, I had to be strong, I had to survive this pain. But even when I thought that things will get better my destiny slapped me again. In front of me was standing a tall man, with small brown eyes, dark-grey hair, a mustache and sideburns, wearing a suit. He glared at me like he was seeing a ghost. He was my brother.

     -You traitor, you came back to face your end? Such spiteful view. Black hair suits you better, you don't deserve the beautiful red hair my mother gave you. 

     -Our mother, his eyebrow twitch and his voice became a growl.

     -My mother, you are nothing more than trash for this family, going around, doing erands for Phantomhive, you were better dead with him! And now that little bastard- 

     -Shut up! Don't speak about Ciel like that! He took his gun out of his poket and pointed it to me, grining madly. I used to feel so small in front of my brother, he was smart and everybody loved him, and I was reckless, sometimes stupid and everybody beside my father avoided me. But this time, even with a gun pointed at my head, I felt strong. I knew this day would come, but today was a nightmare. I had to kill my brother or else I would never be left alone, now that he knows I'm alive. I began to walk closer to him as he started to yell at me that he's going to kill me. I got closer and closer to him as he started to tremble in fear. Then, he shot me. It wasn't the pain that got me mad, it was the fact that my own brother wanted me dead. Everybody wanted me dead in this freaking country! Is there a place for me to be? Somewhere warm, with people that love me for who I am? I walked again and he was shocked. His hand was shaking hard and he shot me again, this time in my shoulder. Blood was everywhere and I was angry. I was right in front of him when he put a knife right in my heart. That was the last drop. I slapped him so hard that his cheek was bleeding. I began to cry as I kept slapping and punching him. He was screaming for me to stop, but I kept going, harder and harder...like a demon. He was now dead, in a pool of blood, his face unrecognisable. I looked at him for a moment, this dead man was my brother, and I killed him. I never understood why he hated me this much. I always wanted to be his friend, to help him. His hate was so stong that he wanted me dead. I looked up at the sky, rain washing my face and body from all the blood. I want to see Sebastian so bad, and I can't. I want to sit in a warm room, to drink wine and listen to my father's voice, and I can't. Is there something in this life that I can do? 

     I was back on my ship after such a long time, I missed the salty smell, the loud laughs and the sweet wine. I was sitting in my room as Joseph was in front of me, with a beer in his hand. 

     -So, did you find something about that incident?

     -Not really, but I've done some errands so I guess it's ok. His eyes studied me for some time before he asked:

     -And Michaelis? I smiled at him, knowing he liked Sebastian and he wanted us to be together.

     -We will see in the future.

Sorry for the gap between the chapters. I was busy helping my friend for her wedding. I hope you like this chapter and thank you for reading this story.