My Savior Lied (Demi Lovato Fanfiction)

Chapter 3- Remember me

Charlotte's pov

So here I am again,staring blankly on the streets of Texas. For some reason it had escalated to darkness quickly. I leaned back against the cold,hard tiles of the roof. I gazed upon the stars. I remember once my grandma said(before she passed away) that I could speak to the stars for comfort. So I tired once and surprisingly it worked and I still do it so don't judge.

I sighed and closed my eyes. "Stars you know me better than myself. I know what I am feeling right now is pain. It just hurts to think that I am not perfect enough for the voices. They speak so loud and it's kinda hard to ignore. Everyone thinks I'm 'fine' but they don't see through the fake smiles and my tough look,and all along I wished for is to have a mother's love. Yet mine can't do a simple thing because she techincally said she never wanted me in the first place."

I wiped the tears that already spilled down my cheeks and thought to my self. I started to get cold so I went back to my room,hopping on the piano. I began to make up a song quietly. It sounded kinda liked this...

(A/n just pretend this is a made up song because I really can't think of lyrics right now)

I can almost see it,that dream I'm dreaming

but there's voice inside my head

saying 'you'll never reach it'......

I finshed the song replaying it over and over until I heard my bedroom door open. I stopped and turned to see Demi at the door,tears in her eyes. Like why you crying for?

"What do you want?!" I snapped.

"Please just hear me out..." My phone ringing interrupted her. I glanced at my phone. Vanessa it read. I picked it up and put it on speaker.

"Nessa really not the time!"

"Yeah whatever. I just wanna say you have to come to a Demi Lovato concert with me."

"Say what now?!"

"You have no choice Charr."

I cringed and looked at Demi,she was smiling. Why? Idek.

"Okay i'll come but on one condition?"

"What is it?"

I grinned. "You buy me starbucks for the rest of the month."

She groaned."Oh really Charr shows how much you love me."

"Yeah I know right. Your making me go to a Demi Lovato concert and you know how much I hate her." I hissed.

"Come on Charr lighten up your too tough." she whined.

"And that's how I like it. Look I have to go see you tomorrow dumbass."

"Whatever slut." I rolled my eyes and hung up turning towards Demi who was grining like an idiot.

"You hate me?" She said in a disbeliving tone. I sighed and rolled my eyes. "Oh no the fact that you left me when you were 14 with my dad makes me jump with joy at how much I love you. Now seriously tell me why your here?"

"I'm here to take you home." I burst into laughter only to realise she wasn't kidding. "Oh you weren't joking." she shook her head. "Why?"

"I want you back in my life,I miss you." My jaw dropped. "Ya what now,how come your saying this now huh? Demi do you even know how long I've been waiting for you? I don't even consider you my mom anymore. Where were you when I first got bullied? How about the time I first self harmed? Or when I stopped eating because I thought you left me because I was fat? Or my first heartbreak? Or when I got raped?!"

I quickly put my hand over my mouth, that was never meant to come out. I ran to my bathroom slamming the door and locking it. I leant down against the bathtub trying to ignoring the voices that ran through my mind. I tried everything in my power to stop them and the only way I felt was possible was to scream. So I started screaming loudly not even noticing that my dad had come through the door.

"Charlotte babygirl stop screaming!"

I opened my eyes and started sobbing. I don't know why the only person I cry infront of is myself. He picked me up and put me on his lap. I hung onto him for dear life while he rocked and sang to me.

"D-Daddy make them stop it hurts too much." I choked. "Make what stop princess?" he said kissing my forehead.

"The voices,they speak so loud." He nodded and began singing again.I focused on the song and I felt myself fall asleep my eye lids slowly closing without permisson.