My New Life and Coping With It

A Secret Revealed

I kept sobbing and sobbing, drowning myself in the repressed pain that i kept bottled up inside of me all this time. The pounding didn't stop and i got really irritated so i threw my socials text book at it and yelled,"GO AWAY!!!". The pounding stopped and i dropped the album and crawled up my bed and curled up in a ball and fell asleep crying.

I woke up to the sun shining on my face with a pounding headache, dry eyes, and a burning throat. I got out of bed and fell on the floor, overcome by the intensity of my killer headache. I groaned and curled up into a ball and just sat there. Once i was sure i wouldn't collapse when walking, i got up and walked to my bathroom. I took off my clothes and Stepped into the shower. I let the scorching hot water keep me sane and relax my tense muscle. I stepped out and dried myself with my towel. I wrapped a towel around my body and another around my hair and stepped out. I went into my closet and put on my under clothes. I grabbed a pair of frayed demin shorts. I placed a white undertop on and then a light blue crop top with the words 'don't mess with me' in black on the front. I dried my hair and straightened it to perfection. I placed on some light makeup and put on my ray ban's. I grab my phone and put on a pair of sandals. I walk downstairs to see everyone sitting around in the living room. I walk cautiously, staring at Tessa with confused eyes, only to be met with a blank stare. I sit down next to Nathan who pats my hand. Thank goodness someone else is sane here. Liam clears his throat, grabbing everyone attentions.

"this family meeting is called to order. We are here to discuss Jade's.....uh.........yeah so Jade care to explain?" Liam questions.

"i'm sorry for my, uh, breakdown. I don't usually do that. I promised u won't see anymore of that anyways." i mumble while scratching the back of my head.

"we don't want u to keep it bottled up Jade. It's fine if it happens once in a while but we want to know why it was so bad this time." Tessa said quietly. I stare at her in shock. How had she known about my breakdowns? I replayed the time i was with the Newmans and i didn't remember having any breakdowns.

"i was at a funeral with your parents once. U left the church when no one was looking. Everyone went out to search for u. I went into a park to see u crying in a tree. I watched u from a distance until a cop found u. I think her name was Darcy. She took u back to your parents and then u guys went home. U were 7 i think. Ur mom also told me about it." Tessa explains as if reading my mind. I stare at my sandals, absorbing every detail.

"because it's my parents and sister who died this time. The last connections to my only family have died. I feel so alone. U won't understand." i cried to Tessa. She nods and everyone stays silent. I smile and get up to walk out.

"where are you going?" Nathan asks.

"i'm going to walk around. See ya." i say before i exit the house. After a few minutes the door opens and then closes. Someone runs to catch up with me. Nathan runs up next to me and steers me into a park. I scale a tree and sit on a sturdy branch. Nathan struggles to get up. I laugh At him. He scowls and sits down on the grass. I climb down the tree and sit next to him.

"do u want to know why i'm so overprotective?" i ask quietly. He nods his head. I start.

FLASHBACK

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"mom where are you going?" i ask.

"just inside sweetheart. It won't be long. Just wait outside." she replied before handing me Levi. He smiled at me, showing his dimples.

"awww! Who's the cutest boy in the world?" i cooed. Levi was 5 and as cute as a button. I was 13 and melodramatic.

"me!" he cried. I smile and start laughing. He smiles up at me but then a shadow crosses his face. A look of horror crossed his face before he screamed. I felt a sharp pain on the left upper side of my back and i knew someone had stabbed me. I screamed out in pain and fell to the ground, clutching Levi. The man hovered over me. I suddenly kicked him in the groin and he fell down in pain. My breathes started to become harder and my grip on Levi was loosening. The man noticed this and snatched Levi from me. He stabs Levi in the spine and drops him on my stomach. He ran away. Police surrounded us as i tried to stop Levi's bleeding. Levi became limp. I heard someone scream and then Levi was taken away from me. Then i was being lifted up and carried away. I was beginning to slip. Everything dulled and the pain ached less. Then i was whisked away. I think someone gave me morphine and i fell asleep. I woke up to find that i now have a scar on my back and that i was lucky that i survived. My brother wasn't as lucky though. Because he was stabbed in the spine, he was paralyzed for life. Then a couple of days after he was stablized, he had a heart attack and died. His death was the worst for me. I was the closest to him and vice versa. I didn't talk to anybody for a month. My old friends helped me and i was soon talking and joking around again but i was never the same. It was like some part of me was ripped away and thrown in the garbage, never to be reclaimed again.

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FLASHBACK

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"oh. I'm sorry Jade. I didn't know but if i knew it was like that, i wouldn't have pried it out of u." Nathan said.

"it's okay. It feels better now that it's off my chest." i reply. We sit in silence for a little while and then we walk back to the Estate.

But just before we entered the Estate Nathan asked,"can i tell this to My mom and dad? They feel responsible for your breakdowns and what not." i nodded my head and went inside. I climbed the stairs as i heard Nathan tell his parents about my story. I entered my room and changed into my pjs, too tired to shower and climbed into my bed. I was about to drift off when i heard a knock on my door.

"come in" i croaked. The door opened and Tessa walked in and enveloped me with a hug. I hugged her back and smiled.

"don't feel responsible for something that developed a long time ago Tessa." i whispered into her ear. She nods and lets go. She smiles and walks out, closing the door behind me. I rest my head on the pillow and drift off into a dream-filled night.

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I uploaded! Don't expect me to upload tomorrow though.

Bai, PurpleSquidney101