Dr. X: Broken Souls Intertwined

Part five

Boom I hit a brick wall or at least it felt like one. As I looked up I saw two security guards. "Where you think you going?" One security guard asked sternly. "Better calm down or you're gonna have a nice pointy needle in your ass!" The other guard said. They both held me close to them and told me to get on the ground immediately and spread my my arms and legs out. "What the fuck is this, you sick bastards?" I screamed in fear. "Aye, Tank and Miguel, I got this." I heard Dr. X say as he approached us. As he helped me up I saw a smirk on the guards faces. "Screw you!" I lashed out. Miguel said, " When and where?" He chuckled. Tank added by saying, "Nah bro, look at her. She gonna fuck around and slice ya dick off. Don't even do it."
      The hell? Who hired these dumbasses? I thought. "Guys, piss off. Will you?" Dr. X said. As Miguel and Tank walked off, Dr. X took me by the hand and walked me into his office. He told me to sit there and wait for his return. Finally after 45 minutes he came back from the group exercise. "Well, that went left. Do you agree?" He said with a cold sweat. "Nothing ever goes right when it comes to me." I respond.
     He then got serious and told me what I should focus on when loving myself. "Never say you don't wanna love yourself. Life starts with us and it'll end with us. You are your worst enemy and once you love yourself, there shouldn't be anymore self confliction." What he said was great and all but I had to know one thing. "How do I start to love myself?" I asked in a low tone.
     He took a deep sigh and replied, "By not making someone else your source of happiness. From what I heard about your ex- boyfriend Tyler, he became all of that but sadly dropped the ball, along with your self esteem. Once you love yourself, you teach others how to treat you! I mean if you don't love you, who will?" Damn. What he said ran through my mind all night.