i took the scissors by their handles and
chopped away the sadness that hung from my head. my hair used to be long and beautiful and you loved it that way. but i chopped it all off.
i applied bright red lipstick to my lips, checking my reflection in the mirror. i smeared dark blue eyeshadow across my eyelids with my fingertips, knowing just how much you hated when i wore makeup.
i cut holes in my jeans and wore all black, knowing you hated how dark and "emo looking" the color was. i wore multiple brackets and dangly earrings because i knew you'd disapprove.
i got a fucking tattoo because i needed something permanent in my life. something that couldn't just go away. something that wouldn't leave. i needed something that wasn't temporary.
i thought theses changes would help me. but they left me feeling as empty as i did before
YOU ARE READING
Somewhere Around My Orbit
Poetryi've placed a piece of myself in each poem in this book. this is the story of me.
