who to believe? || Anthony Trujillo (NEXT SERIES: Who To Hate?)

Just Anthony

"Hey you good?" I smiled tapping his shoulder then he blink twice adjusting his vision and look into my eyes "Hey! Yeah yeah sure i am. You got some stuff?" He smiles. "I never come out without zero bags on my hands" i laugh making him forgets whatever he had been thinking about.

Such a long shopping day and im loving it! Then we headed back to the team10 house cause its getting late. Then i go clean up my self and put on Anthony's brown hoodie with no pants underneath but a black set of panties and bra. I brush my hair  and i could feel Anthony is sitting there in the corner of his bed staring at my every single movement and he's super chill. Just enjoying the view. Then i burst into tears. I really don't know why this time. Knowing that i love someone so much kills me bcs with that powerful feeling i had for Anthony, he could instantly kill me once he break my heart. 

I tried my best to shrug everything off bcs all those things are remain there in the past. It's just me can't forget the fact that i fall for a lunatic ex-rapist.

Only love can hurt like this

I thought to my self, tilting my head up, closing my eyes letting a few tears running to my cheeks and soak Anthony's hoodie. I stand there next to the closet then i feel a warm breath fanned my neck and a strong yet soft arms wrapped around my waist.
I couldn't even hug back bcs im weak at this point. My chest hurt

"You still don't forgive me do you?" His voice stabs my chest 100 times. "I love you" i lost my voice, im not even sure if he could hear me. "That's not the answer but that's all i need baby. Thank you" his lips shaking so bad. My knees numb all of a sudden hearing his words.

"I understand if you hate me. It's all up to you but living my life without you makes me wonder is it possible to breathe in an empty soul?" he asks me the most impossible question that i've been asking to my self the same thing. Then i turn my body facing him  and our lips crashed unlike the other time we did. This time is needy, angry, and honest. I run my fingers trough his hair and he pull out after a good 3 minutes "I'll throw my past away and I promise not to hurt you anymore. You have my word" then he cries hugging me tighter but his heart are shattered into pieces driving me insane over his words.

The fuck did he mean?!

"No.... no! What do you mean? You're gonna leaving me just like that? Now you're giving up?!" I push him hard making he stepping back a few inch from my weak limb. "Its impossible to forget my past. I had no choice" his voice cracked so bad that i couldn't imagine he's this broken at this point. I still don't get what the hell he actually means but now he's giving up on me. That's all i know.

I bet that's why Chance is being all sad this day and he never lies to me about shit. That's it. Im done.

"No worries. Im leaving tomorrow" i gather my self together and pack my stuff. And there is Anthony with his jaw opened and trying to reach my hand but i snap him out. "You don't believe my promises?" He weakly asks. Im died inside. God i want him.
But loving him is the only risky thing i won't ever take again.

I don't even know who the hell am i since im not 100% healing and all the past that i've known are the things that everyone told me about. I could never know what truly happened back then and i decide not to ask about it anymore. Just let it remain undiscovered and i'll just live my life like a normal fucking person bcs im done being played and falling apart more than twice.

••••Chance's POV••••
"This can't be good..." then i hear a loud banging its just like an apocalypse up there then me and Emilio run upstairs to check what the fuck is going on.
"TONY STOP" i grab his hands from behind making him weak. The fuck?! He's trying to kill him self with a small blade.
"Th fuck did you guys talkin about?!" Emilio hugs Z so tight making her melt.