who to believe? || Anthony Trujillo (NEXT SERIES: Who To Hate?)

The Only Cure

••••Chance's POV••••
Then i hear a slow footsteps behind me. I won't look.
Then a hand reaches my right shoulder. A fucked up Anthony finally showing up. "Where's the others?"
"Back to the house" i still don't look at him. Like seriously why should i?
"We need to talk" Now I feel Anthony is so fucking serious but what else he want me to know? Im literally always by his side. I know everything, even all the unsaid things. The fuck did he mean?!

"No bro. You talk to her" i shrug and order an uber.

••••Anthony's POV••••
Then i sit on a long chair next to the main entrance lobby.
Staring at my white yeezys.
What i've done in the past will remain there always. Even until the last day of mine comes. Everyone can talk shit about it, everyone can spit on my grave. Just do it. I deserve it.
I've done bad on my past and i repeat it with the same person. Same pit.
And i've found my moon at the same time. Its Z the girl that sacrificed a lot just to keep me alive. But then i see the sun. Brighter than any lamp, any stars, even brighter than the moon.

But then i get closer to the light.
Its burning

Flaming

Hotter than any fire on this whole galaxy

But that what makes it painfully beautiful. So eye-catching yet so risky to get close. I burn my self once i got there and died.

Then i remembered how was the moon guiding me trough the darkest night, lighten the deepest darkest longest pit, the subtle yet calming light. Even the moon lets all the humans get all those vitamin D made up in our body when the sun comes. Where is she? I couldn't see her on day light

She may never know that the sun is there but at night, she'll always come back

But not anymore

I may forgotten my moon, but once you've noticed that tonight was so dark....... everything changes...........

My moon now is leaving me.

I gotta get her back

••••Back to Z's POV••••
Have you ever fall in love that ur lungs hurt so much listening to some music and makes u remember that name?

The name of a person that means a lot for you. The name that you knew that you could never erase it from ur brain. Its like the brain itself won't work properly if the cravings are unreachable.

All ur entire body go numb and blank and even shaking so bad uncontrollably.
Sometimes you feel too much sadness until ur body are just can't take anymore pain and they refuse to feel anything and be emotionless instead.

Eventough you know it doesn't feels right bcs that boy drives you insane and you know that he's the only cure

Sunny days are just boring and meaningless. Night time drowns you with tears. The evening sunset drives you insane remembering his peaceful eyes.

Everyone have their own love fantasy. And mine? No. I never live in fantasy. But Anthony........ the things that every other boys did to me would never make me feel the same as what Anthony did. He made my stomach hurt, red cheeks, weak smiles, shaky legs, endless laugh, but all of that feelings are genuine and i could never explain how powerful he is driving my limbs go crazy over everything he did. Even the smallest thing

Oh god...

I crave him

Back to reality, i headed back to the hospital due to doctor instructions and take all the medicines that i might need to kill the pain and balance my blood pressure. Then headed back to the team10 house.

Then Chad running towards me and help me to walk upstairs i bet he's hella tired lifting me up slowly but he's such a gentlemen for doing it. Logan also helping me out. Then Tessa and Erika knock the door since i got some stuff in Anthony's room.
"What are you doing?!" Erika runs and pull my hands. Im sitting next to the closet all numb and all i do is just smiling and say "nothing".
"No stop! You're not going anywhere" Tessa pushes away the blue travelling bag next to me and hugs me tighter than ever. "I know it will take forever to forgive him trully, but you know that he's the only person who can heal you internally right? Stop killing yourself by leaving us." Erika stare at my eyes deeply, wanting me to use my brain and speak the truth that my heart wants that i do still love him. And all of the team10 family.

"But someday we gotta sacrifice our heart and go with what brain suggest for sake of a proper life without heartbreaks in the future right?" My voice cracks.

"What else do you want? Get depressed? Get lost? Regretful mind? Figuring out stuff that you know it isn't the right way? Missing Anthony so bad and ended up killing yourself in your own hometown? Name it. Think about it before you'll die for nothing" Tessa is pissed 100% and leave the room. Leaving me with Erika.

Then Emilio and Ivan enters the room "They're here" and run back downstairs. "C'mon beautiful, get up and we'll talk about this later" Erika helps me out and look away, i know she sobs behind my back. But i know she's not blaming me at all for facing the biggest dilemma in my whole entire life. Then i see Anthony and Chance walks in with a bunch of food and what the fuck i feel numb. Food usually light up my day but not today.

Then Anthony put all the food on the counter and lift me up, "i can take her" and Erika nodded, giving me a wink. I smile.

Then we gather with the others on the trampoline and chilling with all the food. Then its getting late and everyone drifted to sleep but me.
I can't find my pain killer pills anywhere and i jump my self with one feet upstairs until my ankle hurt and decided to sit on the stairs. Then i hear a slow yet weak footsteps getting closer. Its Anthony.

"I'll lift you up baby" his sleepy raspy voice killing me instantly and i nodded. He takes me to his room and lock the door behind. "You're gonna leaving me?" Then he sit on his bed.
"Im leaving LA once i can walk normally again" i smile. He looks down and look up to me, eyes watery.
"Im not gonna be a dumb ass and ask why. So im gonna hold you and begging you to not leave me alone here." He holds my hand, not tighten the grip. He's hopeless.
"Now im gonna ask why" i say holding the pain bcs im still standing up and cant find the pill. "You know why. Im gonna die slowly" he hugs me and burry his whole face on my stomach making my spine about to fall to the ground.

Then he pulls me making me sit on his lap, and wrapping my legs slowly to his waist. He's super gentle yet so weak. "I'll go with you wherever you wanna go. Im done killing you, so now im gonna live my life with you and dedicate my whole life for you. Even if i gotta die to keep you alive, i'll take that" he's out of breath but he keeps continuing.

••••Anthony's POV••••
"And baby, you have my word...."
I kiss his hands and our lips crashed, i kiss her whole neck and not leaving a single part of her chest without a light kiss since she's wearing a black thin strapped-tangtop at the moment. She's in a small pain when i kiss her since there's a huge long trail of stitches along her chest but i know she loves it everytime i did it. So i won't stop until she grabs my face and says "Thanks for healing me" and smiles. Her smile is the only thing i need now.

"But...." i take a deep breath
"I'll kill you again once right? We will never know what's happening soon" i burst into tears then hug her tighter than ever.

I've decide what would i do next time

I know its crazy

But i can't stand this

She'll always suffer everytime we met

Oh god....

Should i.....?

I gotta stop this.