who to believe? || Anthony Trujillo (NEXT SERIES: Who To Hate?)

My Best Goodbye

Ray pulled me to the perfect unseen spot "You good at hiding Ray" i smirk. "Sshh" he's hyped about catching these fuckers. "Psst! Nathan! you filmed it?" I called Nathan whispering yeah almost yelling. He smiles and giving me his thumb gesturing he recorded everything.

My body shake so bad seeing his eyes. Eyes full of lies. And regret. I know Chance is staring at me the whole time but i pretend not paying attention. "I think we gotta leave" i feel numb suddenly "No! We're not letting stuff getting worse" Chad come over and crawl next to Ray.
Then i see his hands wrapped around her waist making me sick. Then i stand up. Chancy looks shock but i know he'll always backed me up. "Anthony"
Then our eyes met
"No its okay, im about to leave. I.. I was just make sure if you're the person that im looking for" im shaking and run outside the mall.
I heard Chance talked to him before he catch me.
"Now you scared Trujillo?"

"Zeeva!" Jake yelled at me making me stop running and gasp for air since i cried a lot while running. I immediately exhausted. I remember those beautiful eyes that used to be mine since before i died and now i've just remember everything and i regret every single thing i've done. I should've never talk to Nathan and Kade, never enter the team10 house and keep the past remain undiscovered in the deep dark memory loss ocean.

"How could you give him the second chance?" Chance hugs me. "I don't know, i was blind and not remember a single shit. But i know i wanted him" i bury my face in his chest. He nodded "hope you will think bout it now".

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Now it's been 2 months after that day, i sleep on the bunk bed with ivan and emilio downstairs. Wasn't the best bed and room since it has no fucking wall anymore, but hey i feel safe around my angels. We shared a lot every day and night, damn im lucky to have this boys.

"Hey Emilio are you awake?" I whisper but yep they are all asleep. I was goddamn hungry. Then i walk to the kitchen. Open the fridge and all i could see is a can of sardine. Fuck it imma eat it. I could never handle canny shit bcs i always ended up cutting my self and yes again but this one was quite deep making me flinch and the tip of my finger looks like a sandwich bread, fresh red-cutted flesh are seen with bloods running making it feels even worse and unexplainable. I bite my lower lip trying my best not to scream and i run upstairs trying to wake Chance up. Yes, he's my guardian angel.

I slowly open the room. I could sense that Anthony still awake but his eyes closed. Then fuck a drip of my blood touches Tony's bare chest. "Chancy..." i shake his face and he open his eyes slowly "What's up?" He asks adjusting his vision. "This hurt a lot" i cried bcs the blood won't stop and seeing this much blood are nightmare to me. "Holy fuck hold on Z" Chance run towards the bathroom and wrap my hand with a towel.

"Thanks. You can go back to sleep" i smiled hugging him. "You're holding so much pain and i sleep? Im not a dick" he smiks. Then Anthony flip his body facing the opposite position. "He definitely heard that" Chance smiled and walks downstairs.

••••Chance's POV••••
She was my world since i don't even realise that i have one. Seeing her happy was my main goals as his bestie back then. And now i gotta make her decide.

••••Back to Z's POV••••
Then he pushed me against the perfectly clean wall quitely but it was rough. I smell what about to happen. Our lips crashed harder than ever and he rips my shirt off leaving me with a black bra and black booty short.
I wrap my hands around his neck and he lift my body up with his both arms on my thighs. He pushes me to the trampoline and he's on top of me. God i've felt this once. And i would never say no.
He admires my body a lot and his stare are just like no others. He's gently kissing my neck all the way down and we were so close i can hear his breathing and his heartbeat.
He's the master of turn on spot, with light touch and kiss without breaking the stare he could make me moan like never before.

"Anthony was lucky to have you" he wishpers. "Fuck Trujillo, just have some fun" i bite my lower lip. "We already did" he smiles gesturing me to sit and hold my hand "is it heals?"
"Yeah i feel nothing now"
"That's Sutton's magic over there"
"Haha whatever"
"Just ask me whenever you need" he smirks and helping me putting back all my clothes then headed back to his room and drifted to sleep. He was super gentle and rough at the same time. Feels so right to my body but yet feels so wrong to my heart. It kills me.

I walk upstairs to take the laundry and lean my head against the door. Since its 2AM in the morning, everyone asleep and haven't sleep for a couple of days and only wear black bra and black booty short. Then a footsteps getting closer. I was wondering but not terrified at all.
And yea that's sleepy cutie fucking Anthony. "The machine is too loud" his raspy voice with his reddish lips i just wanna bite right away. I've missed him whole. "I..Im sorry. I got no time to clean up at the morning so i do it now" i stare at his chest. "You look horrible" he adjust his vision. "I've always been horrible." My eyes start to burn. Then he kneel down stare at my face. "How was your day"
don't cry don't cry i tell to my self.
"It was poppin. How's yours?" I smiled but yes shaking at the same time. "Great. it was great. You look super busy" then he sits next to me. "Yeah, gotta stay high to keep you off my mind" i had no choice but fuck it, lets be real.

He smiles and hold my hands "if i beg you an apology, will you forgive me?" I look back at him "if i trust you, will you break it again?" Then he look down in embarrassment.
"I've talked to Landon bout it and he made a video for you since Jake don't want him to visit this house anymore" and he handed me his phone.
It was about 10 minutes video
Super touching
I appreciate his apology and his regretful tone
I forgive him but i'll stay away from him

"How about you? Not making one of these?" Sarcasm is my talent. "No. I know im a worthless junk, so what's the point on making that if i knew i never deserve to have your trust" he let go of my hands and close his eyes, lean his head to the wall and tear up. "Its okay, we're still a good team" i smiled lean my head to his shoulder.
"We haven't even break up."
"It's okay not to say goodbye whenever you're about to leave sometimes"
"Why?" He stares at me
"Bcs beautiful endings are never exist when you're adding goodbye in it"
I cant help but cry my eyes out

"Then you're my best goodbye" he stands up and walk to his room. I just don't wanna feel anything at this point and numb my entire heart bcs loving and hating Anthony is the hardest task that i had ever face on my whole entire life time.

••••Chance's POV••••
"Did you made it bro?" I hate him but after all he's my bro, we gotta face it even in the darkest phase possible. "She looks horrible" he answers looking blank unlike usual. "What do you mean?" I ask.
"I broke her" he throw his fucking phone and glad i catch it well.
"Then be a men and fix it" i clear my throat. "Im sorry bro. I've bring you down and now everyone hate me" he cries and i swear he looks horrible too, he barely could sleep since past few weeks after Avery fuck another guy infront of him. I think he was just realised what and who he trully crave all this time. No its not Avery. Its Z, Zeeva. "All good bro. Just stop hurting her and fix what you've broke" i smiled patting his back, his muscular back was cold and lifeless.
"I think she likes you" he stare at me not wanting to know my response. "No. Its just me. She loves you beyond anything on her life" i smiled but it feels like im stabbing my self with a dagger more than twice. I remember her soft skin and her beautiful eyes. Then i shake my head.