Phil lied on the hospital bed, Dan on a chair beside him, holding his head in his hands.
'How couldn't I see the signs?', he thought silently to himself. He blamed himself. He thought it was his fault.
Finally, Phil woke up.
"Dan?"
"I'm here, Phil"
Phil sat up and Dan reached out and held his hand.
"Why?" Dan asked
"Why what?"
"You know..."
Dan's voice trailed off and Phil didn't answer. They sat in silence for a few minutes until finally broke the silence.
"I wanted to die."
"Why?"
"Did you read my suicide note?"
"Yeah, I read it"
"I'm a disappointment, Dan. A worthless, useless, ugly, disease-ridden disappointment"
"SHUT UP!", Dan snapped at Phil.
Phil looked shocked. Why was he getting angry? There was no need. He was just trying to explain.
"I'm sorry" Dan said. "I'm shocked at myself. I just can't bear to hear you talk about yourself like that. Your beautiful, and you're not worthless. It's not you're fault you have cancer."
"It still doesn't change the way I feel about myself. I still feel like I'm a disappointment. I'd be better off dead. You'd get over me."
The nurse came in and looked apologetic.
"I'm sorry" she stated "but visiting hours are over"
Dan pulled in Phil for a hug
"Remember what I said" he whispered, and he walked out of the room, tears filling both his eyes and Phil's eyes.
"I love you" Dan said
"I love you too"
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Cancer // PhanFiction (sequel to The Lying Llama)
FanfictionTRIGGER WARNING OF CANCER SELF HARM AND DEPRESSION!!!!!! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED Dan and Phil are best friends. They have been for as long as they can remember. However, one day, one diagnosis, can change someone's life.
