A Walk In My Head

where i belong i wish to know

truth is
i was never the happy kid everybody says they once were
everyone seems to have lost themselves
but i just never found myself
you can sometimes see flashes of the girl i want to be
but i can never become her
when i was a little girl
i was alone
the shy quiet girl who just had one friend
then that friend goes away
what do you think happens to the girl?
she looses everything she was
i never seem to fit in
i like to pretend i do
but then you see around
they are all not really here
they don't consider me as a part of them
i like to think i'm with them
but they don't seem to think the same
then comes the time when i loose what i think i am
i couldn't even loose myself cause i never knew what i was like
i lost who i was trying to be
it left a void
a big black space in my body
trying to fill it up with random stuff
filling with mistakes
mistakes that will only make the void bigger
trying to get love from people that don't know of your existence
and those who do, don't seem to care at all
i have never fitted in
in this big world
no matter how hard i try
some people don't get their happy endings
but i believe some people just don't get a happy beginning
and from there it goes downhill
i just wish to find my story
where i should belong

this is a shit world with shit people and shitty poems like mine