A Walk In My Head

start over please

im sorry,
i hate saying this with every part of me
but we've grown apart
we are different people
i still care for you the same way i did when we were the closest
and i always will
i love you as much as i did a year ago
i wish i didn't, but i do
and that's a universal fact that won't change
and i have accepted it
but i have to let go
i need to let go
a part of me still wants to believe that you care the same
but i know you don't
and that's fine now
every second that passes
every glance we cross
when i see you
i see a past full of my favorite memories that i can't get back
everything hurts more and more
and it's affecting those around me
i didn't mean for it to end this way
i wish i could stay by your side forever
but your presence is venom to my heart
shutting you out would be the least painful way
that's what they say
but that's doesn't mean it won't hurt
my heart will crave your touch every second of the day
my ears will bleed to hear your laugh again
my dreams will be filled with images of you
and my heart will stop every time you pass by me
my body will feel like it's on fire constantly
and the thoughts of you will only grow stronger
but then one day
it will all be gone
and i will be free
and maybe then, i could walk up to you and start over.