Was I Enough? ~Jamilton~

Race

Laurens' POV

      I walk into the office, my mind focused on one thing, Alexander. Him and I are best friends, we are both in a friend group of Marquis de Lafayette, Hercules, me, and Alexander, but we all use nicknames. Marquis is Gilbie or Laf, Hercules is Herc, Alexander is Lex or Alex, and I'm Jack, the revolutionary set. Herc and I have been friends since elementary, Laf joined us in middle, and Alex in high, the good ol' gang. Laf and Herc are dating, and I've had a crush on Alex since I laid eyes on him, but he's married now, and very happy.
     I sit down at my desk and start going into my same old fantasy world that have been going into since high school. Why won't he talk about his past or where he's from? Why does he not like to come outside when a storm is approaching? Why did he live in his own apartment without his parents in high school? Why doesn't he love me...?
     I'm suddenly snapped out of thought as his hear the front door to get into the office slam shut and I look over to see who it is. Alex. My heart starts racing and my face flushes until my heart drops as I see the pain and tiredness in his eyes, as I see his unkept hair and his messy wardrobe choice, as I see the white wrap around his arm show through his thin shirt. My heart shatters at the sight.
      I get up and race over to him, he jumps back about twenty seconds after I run over to him, his reaction time is slow from lack of sleep. "Alex! What's wrong?!" I ask, the concern so obvious in my voice as my heart races with worry. He just looks up at me with tears in his eyes, looks at the ground and walks to his desk, sitting down and staring at the wall as I follow. "A-Alex?" I ask again before Washington, our boss, sees and grabs my arm sternly and drags me away into a meeting room and shuts the door, "What the heck?!" I say, still deadly worried for Alex, "You don't know what happened... Do you?!" He asked. His voice deep and laced with sadness, I shake my head and his eyes turn soft with sadness, ,"Use the computer on your desk and look up Thomas Jefferson in the news." He said, saying Thomas's name quieter so that no one would hear.
     I nod and open the door and walk to my desk, sitting down and doing as Washington said and scrolling down till I find the article, the cold computer keys smooth on my fingers. I read the title of the article, 'Thomas Jefferson pronounced dead from suicide' I read this and gasp, tears coming to my eyes. I sob silently in my chair, taken back by the news. I stare at Alex, he looks absolutely broken as he just sits there, I wipe my tears away and steady my breath as I stand up and walk over to Alex, hugging him softly in his seat. He shoos me away and whispers that he's 'fine'.

~Time skip brought to you by my laziness and the fact that I'm STILL in the car~

      I call a gang meeting (not literally lol) but without Alex as he's the topic of the meeting. I sit in my couch numb as Mullette breaks through my door, Herc wearing his bandana thing and Gilbie holding a baguette as he yells something in French. I look up and them and then to the other couch as if signaling for them the shut up and sit down, which they do. "So... We need to talk about Lex." I said, hiding the pain in my voice.
      "And you nonexistent love life with him?" Gilbie said with a chuckle, I slowly looked up at him, my eyes red and puffy, he immediately shuts up and realizes what he just said, as you can see the guilt in his soft eyes. "You guys should brace yourselves." I said sadly, looking down as the both shift a little and nod. "J-Jefferson committed s-suicide y-ye-sterday." I manage to get out, Herc's jaw drops and Gilbie gasps and they start to silently cry, "we need to be here for him." Gilbie said quietly and Herc and I nodded, "I say we get all of his happy food and surprise him at his house." Herc suggests, "Kay. Someone drag him awake from the office first." I say in response, both of the others signing in agreement.
      We end up agreeing that I'll go and save him from his work while Herc gets the food and Laf set up a comfy little comfort zone at his house for him. I walk out of the house and to the car and drive silently to the office, once I park the car in the paring lot I take off my seatbelt and pop the 'Miranda' soundtrack into the thingie for when they got back into the car.I open the door to the car and walk into the office, telling Washington my plan so that he can mark it so that Alex stopped working. I walk over to Alex and lightly tap him in the shoulder, he grumbles but doesn't look away from his computer screen. Eventually I just roll his chair away from his desk and computer and pick him up from the chair, despite his attempts to resist and the groans, I carried him to the car and out him into the passenger side and drived him back to the house, playing Miranda the whole time. It didn't help.
       I carry him into the house and then to his room, where Gibs has put a ton of blankets and pillows on and Herc has put noodles and pizza on a stool next to the bed on a stool. I set him down gently in the bed and put him under a ton of blankets and sighed, "Gilbert and Hercules are here too. We wanna help you and make you feel better so do you want one of us to stay or all of us or all of us to leave or..." I say, "could you stay and cuddle with me?" He asked weakly as I blushed, "sure." I said and laid down next to him, getting under the blankets and cuddling him until he fell asleep.
      Laf walked in, looked at us and gave me a sad smile, "You never told me." He said quietly, "what?" I said quietly too, not wanting to wake Alex up. "That you like him. And that this kills you every day." He said softly, "Is it that obvious?" "To everyone but him. Mon ami I know the feeling... You can talk to my about it." I sigh and look down at the adorable Alex and blush, "Settin' flame to our hearts for fun." I whisper to myself,  (WEEE ARRR THE WRECKLESS WE AR THE WIILD YOUTHHH) crushed by the weight of my life.

(A/N)
Hello there my little lovlies!
This was the longest chapter so far and it was so fun to write!
I know... Lafayette's nickname changed like ten million times.
(Gibs, Giblie, Gelbert, Laf, Lafayette)
Here is everyone's sexualities I guess...

Alex: bi-poly
Thomas: bi
Lafayette: Poly-Pan
Herc: Asexual (ok it's really late and I'm super tired so correct me if I'm wrong, but he still likes Laf. I will change this if I'm wrong)
John: gayyyyyy AF
Burr: Bi
Jemmy James: Pan

Ooook. Guess the tend is Bi I'm this fic so mk.
Have a wonderful night my children!

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