drunken secrets- 5sos fanfic

Chapter 10

Olivias POV-

I was awoken by the sound of birds chirping and the sun eager to shine through any cracks in the closed curtains. I picked up my phone to see that I had loads of Instagram DMs and about 50 Snapchats. I went to Instagram first, and I clicked on my top DM.

Is this you with Michael Clifford?  Are you his girlfriend? Please answer!!!

I was so confused but I then scrolled up to find a picture of me and Michael in the cafe. The paps must have posted it everywhere. I got up and left the peaceful bedroom and called Michael. I was quiet because Adam was still sleeping. He picked up. 

'Hi Michael, have you seen the news?'
'Yes. We weren't gone quick enough and they managed to get pictures.'
'I'm so sorry.'
'No, it's not your fault. I can't get away from them these days. They are everywhere, always on my back'
'Okay. Please, say it was a fan. Don't say it was me'
'Anything for you. Meet me today?'
'The alleyway where we were yesterday.'
'I love you, liv'
'Bye Michael.'
I put the phone down and replied to all of my messages.

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A few hours went by and Adam finally rose. I hope he doesn't see all of this drama. "Morning"

"Morning liv. I'm gonna pop to the shop and grab some stuff for breakfast. Bye." and he was gone. He is so good at acting like nothing is wrong but there was and we couldn't fight it. I could feel the foundations cracking rapidly, but for some reason i felt nothing other than guilt. I had been with Adam for two years, and he did love me. My heart is too big and I feel too much, and i can't seem to make what happened between me and Michael yesterday sit right in my head.

I decided to shower, in hope that i would be able to clear my mind. I stepped into the bath, feeling the flaming hot water hit my back. It made me jump at first, but I subsided the feeling, as I really needed it to be hot. Feeling the water on top of my head and running down my body made me relax, but my legs were too weak for my heavy body. I sat down, and tucked my knees to my chest. I began to sob. I sobbed for an hour, all through my shower routine. I didn't know why i was sad- but i couldn't control my tears. I was overwhelmed. I knew that i needed to end things with Adam, but what happens if its not the right decision to go off with Michael? What happens if i just need time for myself? Time to be independent? "Liv? You here?" My train of thought was interrupted by Adam coming home. I scrambled around and finally rose to my feet. I switched off the shower and grabbed the towel off the radiator, wrapping it around my body. I unlocked the door and felt cold air on my skin. My shower must have been really hot.

"Yeah I'm here, I was showering" I lately replied to Adam. He looked at me with his big brown eyes, but they looked lifeless.

"Oh okay. Are you going somewhere nice?"

"I'm just meeting with a friend, you didn't have plans for us did you?"

"No, actually I was just going to have a lazy day and watch movies" it was stupid of me to ask- why would he have plans for us if we hadn't spoke for the past couple of days?

"Oh okay. I'm going to go ad get ready" and with that, I was in the bedroom, looking in my wardrobe for what to wear. It's not like I wanted to impress Michael, he had already seen me at my worst, but i had no energy to do my makeup so i wanted to make up for that with my clothes. I pulled out my favourite blue jeans and a tight tube top, and threw them on, and i paired the outfit with my airforce 1's. I turned to open the bedroom door and was startled by Adam stood in the doorway. "You gave me a fright. How long have you been stood there?" I questioned, picking at the black nailvarnish on my nails.

"Not long, just before you got dressed actually" as he spoke, he got closer to me, and i felt unnerved. He had that look in his eye that he had the other day when he came onto me.

"Oh, right. Well I need to leave because I'm meeting the friend in town"

"What friend are you meeting?" I started to panic.

"Kady." I could feel myself getting closer to my desk, holding my hands out behind me so that I don't fall.

"Thats funny. I messaged Kady to ask if she had spoken to you recently and she says that you haven't replied to her message from days ago" Shit. I didn't know what to say. I was thinking for what felt like five minutes, and when I was about to finally open my mouth i hit my desk.

"Uh, well, we saw-"

"Don't bother lying to me" He was now so close that I could feel his breath on my neck. The hairs on my arms stood up.

"Adam I'm sorry but i can't do this, please get off me"

"Can't do what?" He started touching my back, his hand rubbing my spine.

"This. Us. I think I need to end this" He backed away straight away.

"What the fuck do you mean?" I dodged him and ran for the bedroom door. I got to the front door, and blurted it out.

"We are over."