drunken secrets- 5sos fanfic

Chapter 9

Olivias POV-

I saw loads of cameras. Flashes eventually filled the whole room, and me and Michael had to run out of the back. We ran as quick as we could, down a secluded alley way behind some bushes. I giggled alot as I felt adrenaline all over.

Michaels green eyes looked at me up and down. My stomach errupted with butterflies and then my eyes met with his. He looked at me with lust and I just couldn't resist. Closing the space between us, he had me up against the cold brick wall, and his hands cupped my cold cheek. He pulled in and I didn't stop him, as our lips locked and we kissed for longer than ever. I pulled away first. "Michael, I can't do this. Adam will find out about this and its unpredictable what he will do- I'm really sorry"

"We can make it work. You know we can"

"No, we can't. It's simple"

"Yes, we can" Michael pulled in and kissed me again and I didn't want to stop. I knew I had to.  

"I can't do this. Its my decision, as its my life that will get fucked up. I will talk to you soon but I need to leave."

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I had a slow walk home, as I needed to take in what had happened.

I reached my apartment and opened the door to see that it was empty. With the feeling that Adam had left me, I went and checked the wardrobe and all of his clothes were still in there, hung up in colour coordination. I closed the doors and sunk into my bed. I felt ashamed. Not of myself, but of how Adam treated Michael. How he acted last night shows that there is no trust within the relationship on his behalf, and I began to realise how my world is falling apart. I haven't spoke to Cara, Kady is busy with the lads and Adam doesn't trust me. My world is spiralling down rapidly and I can't stop it.

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The door opens with a sudden force and I snap my neck around to be faced with a sweaty Adam. 

"Where have you been?" I asked him merley.

"Went to the gym" He walked over to the fridge and made his usual protein drink that he makes after a work out session. "Why do you care so much anyway?"

"No reason I was just wondering, and either way you are my boyfriend." Adam scoffed and walked into the bathroom, slamming the door behind him. A silence filled the room as I sat in a sad puddle. I didn't know how to explain this to anyone. I felt like a failure. I mourned something that Adam couldn't/never did give me. I was craving what Michael gave me today- over a 2 year long relationship. I couldn't make up my mind earlier, but i felt that the longer i spent with Adam made me want an escape even more.

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Adam left the house to go and study for another test he had coming up. Even though he wouldn't have been distracted because we weren't talking, I believed he went to get away from me anyway, but in different context to usual. I had probably hurt him, and I felt bad, however this was counteracted by the feeling of selfishness. I felt selfish, because I had been. But it wasn't a selfish that was toxic, it was a selfish that felt good because I was so used to being selfless. I was finally doing something for me, something that i wasn't used to doing because i had such a big issue with not being perfect.

I had to finish with Adam.