im a goner- a JOSHLER FANFIC

chapter 3

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Today I wake up to my annoying alarm. 6 am. Ugh. What time did I fall asleep? I am just about to go get a shower when I realize what happened last night. I have a reason to get ready for school now.

I hop in the shower and as im stripping my boxers off I realize that I have a boner. "Oh no" I say aloud. "No. No. No!" I say. I get into the shower and turn it on cold. That did it. "Ok. Good" I say in relief.

After my shower I start to get dressed. I slip on some black skinny jeans and a black shirt. I realize that my cuts are showing. I slip on a black hoodie over everything and add a black and white snapback. I push it on backwards.

I grab my phone and start to head downstairs. my back-pack is at the bottom of the stairs. I pick it up and sling it over my shoulder. I am about to leave when I realize I forgot breakfast. I run into the kitchen and grab a frozen waffle.

I scramble to my jet black Honda and get in. I get all green lights except for the main street one. That's ok though. I get to school half an hour early. Just on time for my guidance session.

I go to the main lobby and enter the guidance office.
Mr. Wilfong is already in there waiting for me. I look at him with despising eyes. He was never a help to me. More like extra stress that I couldn't talk about

"Hey josh" he says, his fake enthusiasm showing
"Hi." I say rudely
"everything ok?" he says

"No." I say " it never is"
"Oh" he says, scribbling something on his note pad.
He beckons for me to sit down.
I hesitatingly sit.
"Why are you late?" he asks
"Er.." I had to wash away my boner. "I Er, had something come up." I lie

His eyebrow raises.
"Why the hoodie? Its still 85° out"
I pull back. " um.." I say uncomfortable
"Josh. I know why." he says
"No. you don't" I say drawing back.
"Yes I do." he says, reaching for my sleeve.

I pull back suddenly. He grabs ahold of my wrist. I yell in pain.
"Ow! Stop it! Please!" I yell
He pushes my sleeve up, revealing my cuts and bruises.
He gasps and lets go.
I blush and pull my sleeve back down. "Please don't tell anyone" I say. "Please."
He pauses. "Ok. I won't tell." he says, "but you need help"
"I know." I say
But I don't.
"Do you have a girlfriend or someone to help you?" he says
Well this just got awkward
"Well.." I say rubbing the back of my neck uncomfortably. "I- er.."

He looks at me surprised.
"Well, im- erm.." why do i do this to myself?
"yes?" he asks
"Well, g-gay" I say, my voice cracking on gay.
"Oh." he says awkwardly
"Yea" i say.
I can feel the tension
"Well. Er. Do you have a- boyfriend?"
"Um. Well..." I start

Just then he walks in. I look up at him. His hazel eyes, fluffy hair, cute dimples, I just want to cuddle him up and run my fingers through his hair. He is wearing a black hoodie as well, but his hood isn't up. He looks SO HOT! Back to reality.
"Bad time?" he asks cuter than ever.

"Just a second" Mr Wilfong says
"K." he says, smiling
I guess Mr Wilfong noticed because he let out a long groan after he left, followed with an "oh." and a "really? Him?"
"Yes." I reply irritated
"Ok well i'll talk to him about it."
"No!" I yell louder than I wanted
"WHY?!" he yells back "Don't you understand josh?! You need help!" he yells back
"I know." I breathe
He holds his forehead
"Josh.." he says quietly
"What?" I say more irritated
"I won't tell him." he says
"Really?" I look up, still irritated
"Yes. But you have to." he says
I think. "ok" I say. "I will."