Lover Dearest

Chapter 29

I was disappointed when Elias didn't pay much attention to me in the weeks that followed.  The training was gruesome so I'm glad he wasn't around for the majority of it.

Although when we went to sleep and eat we went to the normal realm, but to train, we had to visit Allessia in the year 79 AD in order for her to show me how she harnessed the powers of Chaos and how to control them. 

I realized I had more power than I ever thought imaginable.

The war with the Brotherhood was looming, and to say I was petrified was an understatement.

Elias seemed to sense this from me too and he tried to comfort me one night after a day full of rigorous training of telepathy.

"You seem tense.  You shouldn't be worried, you have all the power in the universe."

His  words were easygoing but they did nothing to quell my arising fears about the oncoming battle ahead of us.

"Its not me that I'm worried about, I'm worried about my family, my friends back home, even a few friends at the Brotherhood.  Faye was great to me, she probably didn't even know they were going to use me as a weapon.  I just hope that she doesn't get hurt in all of this.  Oh yeah and that I don't destroy the entire world in the process..."

"You know when it comes to the people you care about that you won't do anything to hurt them, Kristen.  You didn't even have it in you to destroy that slimy piece of shit that cheated on you, Dallas.  You won't destroy the world, not with me by your side."

As he said this, his eyes glinted and gleamed with something that reminded me of the feelings I once had before I learned everything about myself- happiness. 

I wanted to be happy again, but how could I?  Not after everything thats happened to me...

Suddenly, Elias and I were interrupted by an alarm sounding and I froze, unsure of what this meant, both for us and for the sake of the world.

"It's time, Kristen. We need to get you suited up and ready to implement every strategy and power Allessia has shown you, can you do that for me?"

I nodded my head in a daze, wishing to just be able to sink under the covers in his bed and just be with him like he had sort of been there for me in all of this.  We always slept together, not touching each other, just sleeping.  It was a comfort that I greatly appreciated, even if it was a small gesture at that.  

"Good, because its show time."

He smiled a huge megawatt smile at me and kissed me with enough passion and force that I almost fell off the bed.  

I deepened the kiss, wanting more, needing more, before this battle to end all battles.  I didn't know what the Brotherhood had planned, or what these so called "Red Texts" were and what they could do, but I did know how much I deeply cared for Elias. 

I had grown so much closer emotionally these past few weeks training with him and Allessia, and although I know for a fact that I can mentally and emotionally win this battle, there is still a small chance, some little what if in the back of my head that we can lose the world to the  Brotherhood for good.  And I refused to let that happen.

I kissed him back with a vengeance, with a purpose.  I knew what I had to do.  I had to fully become Chaos.  

And Elias would be the one to be able to bring me back to my human state, he had to be.  He would always be there for me.  

It was now or never. 

I broke the kiss and prepared myself for what was coming.

This was war.