Open Your Eyes, And Open Them Wide- An Evril Story

It's Hard When You're Gone

2006
Avril POV:

He didn't come to the wedding. I wanted to see him so bad. He turned what was supposed to be the happiest day of my life into one of the most miserable ones. After Deryck and I had lousy sex. God, it was so bad I could barely fake it. After we got married Deryck just became so distant. He was rarely home and our sex life was horrible. I was alone so much. The only time we were together and the cameras weren't on us was probably once or twice a week at the most. 
Today was one of those lonely days. One of those days I needed a companion who was better than Deryck, emotionally. I called Evan. He was always there for me and always visited me on the days Deryck was gone, which was a lot. 
He was there in a flash. 

Evan POV: 

When I came over to Avril's she seemed sadder than usual.
"Hey Avril, what's wrong?" I asked.
"You wouldn't care, or want to know." She said in the tone I knew meant she really wanted to tell me.
"C'mon, I can tell something's really bugging you." I said.
"Fine. My sex life sucks. Deryck is never around and when we do it, it's so God awful I just want to get up and leave." She looked so exasperated. "And no one is around for me to vent to because all my friends don't want to know or when I do they give the worst advice I've ever heard and the one person I'm supposed to tell everything to I can't." Tears were beginning to well up in her eyes. 
"That must really suck." Was all I could say. I wanted to tell her so much but that would either ruin our relationship or do something that could just end up with us hating each other.
"Well, yeah, it really does. We've been married for only a month and soon we'll start hating each other and already I feel like I can't breathe. In a way, I wish I had never met him." 
"Then why did you marry him?" I let the words fall off my tounge.
"I have no idea. But I'm not throwing this relationship out the window. I need to make this work as long as I can." She explained. 
"You don't need to though. If you see this ending in a divorce, then you just get it over with so you're not in this misery longer than you have to."
"But what if it doesn't end in divorce?"
"What really matters is how you feel around him. Just a few years ago you said you didn't love him. And if you don't love the man you're married to, what good is it?"
"You're right. It's just too early. I'll give it a year." 
I hated seeing her so unhappy. She needed a good husband who loves her and she loves back.

Avril POV:

After Evan left that night I felt lonely again. I decided to do what I did best when I was lonely:
write.
I tried to think of what to write about. My horrible marriage? No, I didn't want to think about that anymore. Evan? No, no, no! I can't, it would be too hard.
But Evan was all I could think about. And the words I found fit perfectly. I had to, I needed to get it off my chest. 

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone.

I noticed that he left his jacket here.

And the clothes you left they lie on the floor
and they smell just like you
I love the things that you do
We were made here forever
out here forever

I know we were
When you're gone
the pieces of my heart are missing you
when you're gone
the face I came to love is missing too

God, Evan, It's so hard when you're gone.