Evan POV:
Avril & I decided to write a throwback song from when we were in the band together, for the fans. We were almost done and I suggested a short pre-chorus. We decided it would be best to wrap up the song so when she left I came up with a fews ideas. I thought back on how I felt when I had to leave- mainly why.
2004
I sat at my hotel desk after finishing my conversation with Avril. Damn. Why the fuck did she lie? Why didn't I keep her from continuing her relationship with Deryck when both of us know he'll never be good enough for Avril. No one will- not me, not Jesse, not Deryck. No matter how much I want her I will never have her. I could've told her I loved her when I had the chance. I could've told her in that very conversation- and not in that best friend way- in a REAL, MEANINGFUL way. I buried my face and my hands thinking of everytime. Every chance. Any moment would've been perfect. Any moment would've worked. Anytime I could've had her I would've taken it. Taken her in my arms. I was SICK of being her best friend boyfriend. I'd been there- the girl being in a relationship with a sex obsessed douchebag, and me being there for her when she was sad and the guy didn't give a single fuck. Even when her Grandpa died Jesse never showed up. I was there comforting her every moment of the day. I held her while she cried after singing Tomorrow. I held her while she cried before. I was always there loving her while she just thought of me as a friend. Now in order to keep myself from breaking down I had to break her heart. Damn, I'm SO selfish. I hate myself for doing that.
The memories flooded back.
Damn it Avril, why are you irresistible?
So many things I should've said when I had the chance, so many times we took it all for granted.
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Open Your Eyes, And Open Them Wide- An Evril Story
RomanceEvan Taubenfeld has always loved the lead singer of his band, Avril Lavigne. He will never stop loving her. One day, Avril and her boyfriend Dereyck announce their engagement and he doesn't know if he would be able to continue working in their band...
