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Point of View: Firm

papunta akong gymnasium to do my unfinished punishment. pangalawang araw palang pero feeling ko mawawalan na ako ng dugo.

bukod kasi sa may punishment ako, magdamag ako nagbasa ng mga judgemental messages after watching my video, at iniiwasan ko sila key.

iniiwasan ko sila kasi malamang kasama nila si chaos at min. iniiwasan ko rin si achi at ace. i am disappointed on myself, really.

kinuha ko yung susi sa pocket ko at binuksan ang gymnasium, maalikabok pa rin yung floor pati ceiling at bintana.

as usual makalat pa rin, malamang kasi kahapon lang ako nagsimula.

tumunog phone ko kaya kinuha ko muna ito at sinagot ang caller habang kinukuha ang mga gagamitin ko sa panglinis.

"hello?" i called out

"hoy, payat anong oras ka na naman uuwi this time?" my annoying brother called, wow ayos kuya namjoon

"at kelan ka pa naging concern sa pag uwi ko. huwaw kuyang kuya ka diyan sa part na yan!" i joked.

"tungaks! may dinner tayo later together with mom and her new husband and kids, uwi ka ha." i did not respond. i nodded as if he was seeing me.

"see you later, memei" he bids and the line went off.

i cleared my mind at nagsimula ng magwalis sa part na hindi ko nawalisan kahapon.

i make myself busy but still the wedding bells keep ringing inside my mind

i remember how my mother and the father of whom i had loved united as one as they shared their vows.

bumigat ang dibdib ko. destiny played very well.

nagulat ako when someone hold my wrist and examined my hands.

"wow you are really strong and numb.. " i looked up to see who it was. hindi na ako nagulat when i saw chaos.

binaltak ko ang kamay ko at pupulutin sana ang map na nalaglag but i saw the handle of the map, durog durog na yung part na hinawakan ko.

i looked at my hands na may benda pa from the cuts i get noong nag KTV bar kami, nagdurugo ito.

i was staring at it for 5 seconds when chaos decided to pulled me. next thing I knew nasa school clinic na kami. dire-diretso lang siya hindi niya pinapansin ang nurse na tinatanong kung ano kailangan niya.

"i need the first aid kit, damn it!" he called out. i'm staring at him, intently.
he made me sit, he was gently holding my wrist afraid that he might break those.

agad namang binigay ng nurse, natakot siguro. ano bang ginagawa kasi ng isang ito?

"ako na po sir maglagay?" the nurse asked pero hindi siya binigyang pansin ng gago. i sighed.

he sat infront of me. he hold my hand at tinanggal ang bendang puno ng dugo sa kamay ko.

he was so focus. itiningala ko ang paningin ko to see him just few inches towards mine.

his dark pair of eyes was staring intently at my wounded hand.  i saw a glimpse of concern on his eyes pero agad akong umiwas ng tingin.

maybe because he was guilty so he's doing this, napipilitan? maybe, the answer why he's here.

he gently clean my hands with tap water, removing all bloods.

"you do not need to do this, jeon." i commented, he looked at me but i just looked at the first aid kit box beside him

"oh shut up, im. just let me handle this." he hushed.

after cleaning my wounds nilagyan niya ng benda ulit ang kamay ko and silence followed.

"have you eaten?" he asked. i did not respond? what's with him?

"i am asking you." humalukipkip siya at tumingin sa akin.

"hindi tayo close." sabi ko.

"of course." sabi nito. "look, im. hindi naman talaga tayo close, and i don't think there will be a chance that we will but can you just answer my questions." sabi nito sinamaan ko siya ng tingin

tangina neto kung maka-ano parang walang sinabing insulto sa akin sa chat.

"i've eaten how about you can you get lost?" he chukled.

"get lost with me, then." he stared at me at pagtapos hinatak na naman

qngnah life, ang cute mo!