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Point of View: Firm

"jeon! ayusin mo naman mag walis!"

"ang alikabok pa sa bandang doon!"

"pahirap ka eh! magandang di ka nalang talaga pumunta dito."

paulit ulit na bulyaw ko kay chaos. bakit ang shunga niya maglinis like magwawalis lang ang dami paring alikabok.

"can you shut up for a bit?" he yelled. i was mesmerized not because he said i should shut up but because he–he look h–hot. yung pawis niya tumutulo sa buhok niya. his hair's a bit messy at pawisan na rin buong katawan niya. he's white shirt hugging his body showing me his god-liked body ahfajfjd tangina.

napaiwas ako ng tingin at napayuko. did I just compliment him?

"pwede bang maglinis tayo without shouting to each one another? it's been a week pero putak ka ng putak diyan?" he commented. itinuro ko sa kaniya ang walis.

"h-hoy, kasi kung inayos mo yung trabaho mo then we're good. panay ka kasi swimming." sabi ko.

"at saka kelangan matapos na agad natin you have your practice, meron rin akong appointment." sabi ko at itinuloy ang gawain. he looked at me.

"appointment? baka date." sabi nito. i glared at him.

"not date. gusto lang ako ihatid ni ace, wag ka nga." sabi ko.

"like I cannot sent you home?" sabi nito. i shockingly looked at him.

"gago, si primma bulabugin mo."

"primma was not around. they have out of town." sabi nito.

"bat' ang bait mo ngayon? pero hindi na, i have already agreed with ace." sabi ko.

huminto siya at lumingon sa akin.

"cancel it. your brother told me that i should sent you home, today." emotionless na sabi nito. tinaasan ko siya ng kilay. what the heck does this guy want?

actually, he's been like that the whole week. he's complicated, lalong naging magulo sarap bangasan.

"who? as far as I know di kayo close ng kuya ko."

"I am close with your brother, min." and that made me stop. "does it hurt?" he asked.

"hindi! gagu, i already moved on." sabi ko.

"well.. okay. anyway, he told me I should be the one who will sent you home, tonight." final na sagot nito.

"pumayag ka? wow that's new." i commented.

"it's my way of saying thank you for thanking care of me that night i am under alcohol." pabulong na sabi nito.

"ano kamo?" kunwareng di ko narinig.

"i said thank you, dumb." sabi nito.

"huh? Hindi ko marinig eh?" sabi ko ulit.

"I SAID THANK YOU! DAMN YOU." he yelled.

"HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAAAHAHAHAHAHAHA.." tawa ko, puladong pulado si gago.

i was currently laughing my ass off in the floor when he threw a cloth right in my mouth that made him laugh.

"3 point shoot." he said between his laughed.

I stopped for a moment seeing him laughing pero agad nag usok ang lahat ng pwedeng paglabasan ng usok sakin ng narealize ko na pinagtatawanan niya ako.

hinabol ko siya at agad rin siyang napatakbo.

"stop! kapag naabutan kita makikita mo ipapatumba kita." I yelled.

"mukha mo mukhang pwet ni key." he said. binilisan ko pa ang pagtakbo but he's faster than me.

I was currently trying to catch him siya naman tumatakbo patalikod at nakaharap sa akin. nahawakan ko na ang T-shirt niya but unfortunately i step onto the wet side of the floor causing me to fall.

fall into the floor...with chaos at the top of me.

he was staring at me, when I open my eyes he was just few inches towards mine. nanlalaki ang mata ko, tinaas ko ang mga kamay ko he hold it at mas lalong inilapit ang mga mukha

"don't you dare punch me or i would.." he did not finish his sentence but he just stare with my eyes back to my…lips.

napalunok ako.

qngnah life at heart bakit kayo ganiyan!

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"wait me here and i will get the car and the umbrella if i did not come out after 15 minutes, umalis ka na." sabi nito. I nodded. andito ako sa second gate ng school, baka kasi umulan mas mapapatagal pa kami pag sa first gate kami dumaan, ma-traffic.

gabi na rin kasi kami natapos gaya nga ng gusto ni chaos. i turned down ace's offer. bakit ko ginawa? hindi ko alam, basta masaya ako at natatakot.

natatakot ako kasi masaya ako.

at ayun na nga bumuhos ang pagkalakas lakas na ulan. luckily, nasa silong ako.

nagdaan na ang ilang minuto, wala parin si chaos. I was staring at the rain. wala akong payong.

niloko na naman ba ako ni chaos? inin-dian niya na naman ako siguro? tanga mo naman, firm. tanga mo, talaga.

let's wait for another minutes firm.

lalong tumindi ang lakas ng ulan. nilapitan na ako ng security ng school sabi niya may bagyo daw, i should go home. wala na daw tao sa loob.

gusto kong umiyak. bakit ka ganiyan chaos?

oo nga bakit mo ba nakalimutan firm, why chaos left you? because you are firm, you are firm who he hates the most.

sumaya ka lang nakalimutan mo na 'yang fact na yan?

wala na akong nagawa kundi suungin ang matatalim na patak ng ulan. yung gamit ko lahat basa.

dumaan ako sa first gate nagbabaka sakali na makahanap ng masasakyan pero iba ang nahanap ko.

it's chaos...with primma..under one umbrella..sharing intimate hugs.

bakit ako natatakot kasi masaya ako? this is the answer, i am scared to be happy because after happiness there will always be sadness. kakambal ng kasiyahan ang kalungkutan.

i cannot be happy. i could not be happy.

pero sa tingin ko ngayon seeing the scenery in front of me. sadness was not what i am feeling, it was hurt.

i can't believe i will cry over this. I am, indeed hurt. and for the first time, i feel like i really fall. fall and broken.

kasalanan mo 'yan firm he said after 15 minutes if wala pa siya you could go home but you had been there waiting for 1 hour, ghad. i cannot believe you, i cannot believe myself.