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2:34 pm

lim achean

want to see something amusing?

im firmei

what is it now???

lim achean

punta ka sa gymnasium now

Hehehehehe

hehehehehehehehe

im firmei

may klase ako

lim achean

gagu wag nga ako last day na kaya ng school fair today

wait kita!!!!! ehehehehehe

im firmei

fine saglit lang ha

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Point of View: Firmei

i have no idea bakit ako pinapapunta ni achi sa gymnasium ngayon. marami akong gagawin and besides ayoko ng magtagal pa dito sa school. there's a possibility na makabungguan ko sila, syempre mas masasaktan sila kasi diba malakas ako kaya wag na! pero teka nga firm ano naman?

diba yan ang gusto mo panindigan mo! pero kasi once I saw them i'm afraid that the 1 week I had spent just to rebuild my walls with just 1 glimpse of him, of them it might be destroy again.

for one whole week I really did my best to avoid him and his friends even primma who seems to notice that I am avoiding her. I blocked him after. lahat ng pwedeng pagkakitaan namin, umiiwas ako.

I'm just proving na may isa akong salita.

lumabas ako ng classroom at tumingin tingin sa paligid. it's unusually quiet no one was around. what is happening?

nung malapit na ako sa gymnasium bunch of students are running papunta doon, pucha men may pila ba ng relief goods ngayon?

tumakbo na rin ako baka kasi maubusan ako. sa sobrang excited ko pagkabukas ko sa pinto, it crushed. I mean it didn't just go open, it is widely opened kasi natanggal ko pati pinto.

lumingon lang sila tapos tumingin ulit sa harapan. sighs. buti nalang immune na sila sa akin. hindi ko na kinabit yung pinto isinandal ko lang at lumingon sa stage. walang tao. natatakpan ng tela na puti yung buong stage and shadow, a man's shadow with a piano.

nagtipa na ang lalaki and the first time he laid his hands on the piano keys it gives me goosebumps. nanghina ako ng marinig ko ang mahinang paghinga nito at pagkanta.

feeling like i'm breathing my last breath

feeling like i'm walking my last steps

look at all of these tears I've wept

look at all the promises that I've kept

i have a clue who it was under the white cloths. I knew him too well...too well that made me hate myself because why it has to be like this? why after all he had done, after all I had done... why i feel like running back?

i put my all into your hands

here's my soul to keep

i let you in with all that I can

you're not hard to reach

I knew him too well. the guy who hated a strong girl so much. the guy who is now a stranger...I should get over it, I don't know him. he's a stranger.

everyone was quiet, boses lamang niya ang pumapailanlang sa kabuuan ng gymnasium habang nagtitipa siya sa piano. his voice is full of sincerity.

and you bless me with the best gift

that I've ever known

you give me purpose

yeah, you've given me purpose

what the hell firm! you should not be here! bakit ba kasi ako pinapunta ni achi dito bruha talaga iyon! ugh. maybe she was trying to tell me how unlucky I am.

thinking my journey's come to an end

sending out a farewell to my friends, for inner peace

ask you to forgive me for my sins, oh would you please?

i'm more than grateful for the time we spent, my spirit's at ease

I was about to turned around but the curtain suddenly fell down revealing a gorgeous man, playing a piano smoothly. his eyes were closed.

i put my heart into your hands

learn the lessons you teach

no matter when, wherever I am

you're not hard to reach

nakanganga akong nakatitig sa kaniya. how could he..? how could he fcking made me weak like this!

and you've given me the best gift

that I've ever known

you give me purpose everyday

you give me purpose in every way

the crowd were shouting crazily. some even pushing a girl in front and when I saw who she is, primma I looked away but before that i saw him open his eyes siguro namamalikmata lang ako na sa akin siya nakatitig while singing the last phrase. but either he is or not, i still looked at him. his eyes were telling me something but i refused to read what is it, because i'm afraid so i turned around just like how i always did whenever my whole system goes weak.

you give me purpose...

i turned around the whole gymnasium was filled with a chant. "SAGUTIN MO NA."

and just like that the one week moving on phase was gone..just like that.

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im firmei

sorry chi uwi na ako eh heheh enjoy the ceremony

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can I know what is my purpose? para hindi na ako nasasaktan.

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i wasn't in the mood to update actually because of what had happened on snsd, i couldn't think of anything plus the fact that finals is starting to stress me out so i'm sorry if it's been ages.

please believe on snsd, just hold on.

[play the song "purpose by justin bieber" but if you want to really feel the situation then i suggest you must play jungkook's cover of it, xoxo.]