TRUST ISSUES

~Indecisive~

Day 30

The next day was fucking hell. As usual,it became a routine. See me, seize me up and down, talk shit,and make fun of me. It was getting to the point where I didn't even care. But it was a little bit easier because at least I had Sh'nay.

"I'll meet you at lunch. I'm gonna go talk to Max" I said to sh'nay.

"Ughh. Okay" she says walking to her class.

"Hey max."

"Hey Nikki. What you been up to?"

"Nothing much. I got kicked out the house so I guess that's ...new."

"Omg you are bad. What you did this time?".

"Ehh. You know.. Parents bullshit. They're getting old so they're getting a lil crazy."

"Um ok. I won't ask no more."

"So.."

"About that kiss at that movie." We both said at the same time.

"Lol.. Sorry. As you were saying-" he said

"No you can talk first --" I said

"Oh me..no. I could wait." He said

It was a little awkward there but I still talked.

"About that lil..you know..thing that happened. I'm so sorry. That was an accident. Please don't get the wrong idea."

"Oh okay."

"So what were you gonna say?"

"Oh nothing. Just...the same thing you said. Don't get the wrong idea. Haha" he did a nervous laugh.

It became quiet after that and luckily the bell ranged.

"So I'll see you in 2nd period?" I said

"Yeah" He said.

Max POV

Nikki low key hurt my feelings about our kiss being a mistake. To me, I actually felt something between us and I felt something real. But to her it was an accident. I didn't want to say what I was gonna say cause then it would of been weird. You know..saying how wonderful the kiss was and she saying something completely different. But I know she just got out of a relationship so I have to get use to her acting like this.

Nikki POV

At lunch, I was sitting with Sh'nay and Max. Sh'nay was mainly talking while me and Max listen and wonder what the hell she was yapping about. I don't know if Max was listening but I know I wasn't. I kept thinking about our kiss. I mean, I did feel something like a connection but it wasn't like ..I don't know. I just hope I'm not catching feelings for him because then that would be bad. "So Nikki how about you?"

"I'm sorry..what?" Sh'nay snapped me out of my thoughts.

"What are you gonna try out for?"

"Oh I don't know. Maybe cheerleading."

"Hmm.. You don't look like the cheer type."

"I'm not but I don't do sports either so I have to do at least something."

"I think you'll be great as a cheerleader." Max said

"Thanks. At least someones supporting me".

"What? I'm just saying" sh'nay said.

"Whatever."

When lunch was over and it was time to go to our 5th hour, I almost forgot I had Ruby.

"Hey Nik" he says.

"Hi." I said dryly.

"What are you doing?"

"I don't know. Maybe paying attention to the teacher speaking".

The fuck is wrong with him?

"Damn you don't gotta be rude, ma".

"Don't called me ma. I'm not your ma no more".

"You can still be. Martha's not around."

"Your fucking sick. I don't want you no more after everything you did--"

"Nikki do I need to send you to the office." The teacher said.

"No, sir".

"Then be quiet and pay attention". 

The class did a little giggle when Mr. D said that. I don't know what's funny other than the fact that Mr. D still can't get a wife.

That night

I had two things on my mind. Max & Ruby. Ugh I swear they're the reasons for my headaches. I sat up straight in bed. Sh'nay was already knocked out. I reached in my bag and took out my blue notebook. On two separate sides, I wrote Max and Ruby. 

Ruby - Pro's

He's funny. Laughable. Goofy. Fine as fuck. Sex game on point. And Irresistible. 

Con's

He's a fucking cheater. Cheater. Cheater. Cheater. Cheater. And a fucking cheater.

Max - Pro's

He is sweet. A gentleman. Is always there for me. Don't judge me. Is kind hearted. And A real friend.

Con's

He's fucking ugly. Not ugly ugly. But still ugly. Okay he's decent. Like in the middle. But he's not that ugly. But he's still ugly. Decent. Okay.

Nikki's Diary.

I can't choose between the two. Max is sweet and have a great personality but is not that cute like Ruby. But Ruby have a nasty personality. But he is fine. But looks don't matter if your heart is not good. Geesh, I sound like a white girl for saying this. Well, goodnight for now. I guess.