More Than This {H.S}

Same Mistakes

Austyn's POV

I felt bad for leaving Harry's place but I had to get out of there. Harry, my best friend in the whole world, just told me that he has feelings for me. I wasn't sure how to take that. Part of me feels like Harry and I could be something great (see what I did there 😘😛) but another part of me feels like our friendship will be destroyed. What if we end up dating and break up and it causes us hate each other? My friendship with Harry is the best thing I've had in a long time. I dont want anything to ruin that. Hell, I dont even know how I feel about anything right now.
I just needed to take a walk.

*bzz bzz bzz* I felt my phone vibrating in my pocket. Thinking it was Harry calling, I answered it. "Harry, I can expl-" A voice on the other line interrupted me. "Oi, this isn't Harry. Its Niall." Niall Horan. One of Harry's closest friends (other than myself) and a member of his band. Oh yeah, I should probably mention that Harry has been in a local band for about 2 years now. Harry, Niall, Zayn Malik, Louis Tomlinson, and Liam Payne. They call themselves One Direction. I'm not gonna lie, they're pretty good. To be a local band, they've gained quite the following around town.

"Hey Niall, what's up?" Out of all of Harry's friends, Niall is my favorite. "I need to talk to you about something, wanna meet up?" Niall says to me. Ya know, I'm getting sick of men having to "talk" to me. Lately, it hasn't been ending well. "Sure, let's meet at the park in 30 minutes." "Alright see ya there, bye." I hear Niall hang up the phone. I'm wondering what he could possibly have to say.

Sunshine Park

I see Niall standing by the swings. As I walk up to him, he greets me with a hug. "What's up ya crazy mofo?" Niall was in the habit lately of calling everyone a crazy mofo. "How are you doing, Niall?" I ask him. "Well as you know, Harry's birthday is coming up and I wanted you to know that the rest of the boys and I are planning a surprise party for him. We could use your help." He says. "You know him better than any of us." He did have a point. I'd known Harry over 10 years and seen every side of him. I was intrigued. "Yeah, I'll help. What'd you have in mind?" I ask him.

Three Days Later

Its February 1st and tonight is Harry's surprise party. He still hasn't said more than two words to me. I can't blame him. I just abandoned him when he was pouring his heart out to me. I was still going over how I felt in my head and I didnt wanna give him mixed signals.
Harry has no idea about the party. All he knows is that Louis wants him to meet at The Riverview Hotel. We're having his party in the ballroom they have there.
It's 6:35 pm. Harry's party starts at 8:00. I begin getting ready. I curl the ends of my dirty blonde hair. Apply more makeup to my face than usual and start scouring my closet for the perfect outfit. Then I found it. Red skirt that falls in the middle of thighs, black tights, and a black spaghetti strap top. I put on my red bottom Christian Louboutin shoes that Harry bought me for Christmas last year. I loved that day.

"Harry, you shouldn't have spent so much on my gift! These are $300 dollar shoes!" I told him shaking my head. "Yeah but you've had your eyes on those for awhile now and besides, I got them at a discount. Its what happens when your mom is a regular customer there." Harry said, trying to reassure me. "Besides, I'm sure you'll have an excuse to wear them before you know it."

He was right. Tonight is the first time I'll be wearing these shoes. After taking another look at myself in the mirror, I head out to my car. Its 7:05 which means Harry's party is starting in less than an hour. I'm excited but I'm nervous to see him. I plan to sit him down at the end of the night and explain to him why I left his house the other day. I wanted to tell him that if he gave me some time to think, that maybe we could try being a couple.

*****

I arrive at the hotel and I'm greeted by Niall, Louis, Zayn, and Liam. They tell me that they've got a performance planned for tonight. Harry included. "He thinks we're here to do a performance for some local music critic but what he doesn't know is they he's actually performing at his own party." Liam tells me excitedly. "Speaking of, Harry told me that he's written a new song he's gonna perform for the "critic" tonight." Zayn explains. "Oh look at the time mates, its 8:00. Lets get this party started!" Niall exclaims.

*****

"Everyone give it up for our favorite local band, One Direction!" I say into the microphone. The entire ballroom is clapping and cheering. The guys really do have a lot of support and so many fans already. They're gonna make it big one day, I know it. Harry, Zayn, Louis, Niall, and Liam take the stage. Harry begins by saying "this is a new song that I just wrote. Its inspired by recent events in my life and I really hope you guys enjoy it!" He was looking right at me when he said that.

Circles, we're going in circles

Dizzy's all it makes us

We know where it takes us

We've been before

Harry is looking at me the entire time he's singing. Letting me know that I was the inspiration behind this song. I can feel my cheeks getting red.

Closer, maybe looking closer

There's more to discover

Find out what went wrong without blaming each other

Think that we've got more time when we're falling behind, gotta make up our miiiind

Or else we'll play, play, play all the same old games
And we wait, wait, wait for the end to change
And we take, take, take it for granted that we’ll be the same
But we're making all the same mistakes.

As the song finishes up, the entire ballroom starts clapping and cheering again. I know that song was meant for me. Harry thinks I'm leading him on with my feelings. Why would he think that? I haven't been leading him on, have I?
Let me think about this. Harry is my best friend, he knows me better than anyone. He makes me laugh, he makes me feel safe. We spend all of our time together. Not to mention, Harry is very handsome. Then it hit me.... Every boyfriend I've had, I've compared to Harry. Nobody will ever be as amazing as Harry.

Do I have feelings for my best friend?