Save Me (Halren)

16

Ally's POV
After I got Lauren inside I shot Dinah a look for calling her a bitch then went to my bunk with my phone. I curled up in the covers and went on Instagram to see what our harmonizers have been up to. I scroll through the fan mail, smiling at all the complements until I get to a comment on one of my posts, a picture with all the girls including Ashley. It read

"Don't any of you girls notice that Halsey is starving herself, open your eyes @fifthharmony."

I furrow my eyebrows and shake my head, scrolling past it. There's no way she's starving herself, could she be? Lauren didn't mention anything about an eating disorder. I decide to ignore that one comment and keep scrolling.

Soon after, I come across a link of one of Ashley's posts from a week ago. I click on it for some odd reason, as if something's telling me to and what I read shocks me... a lot.

"Halsey: Possible eating disorder?"

I furrow my eyebrows in worry as I read through the article then search up a few more articles. Could she really have an eating disorder? How did I not notice this for the two months we've been on tour for? Maybe that's why her depression has been getting worse and she wanted to keep it a secret from us? Does she purge when she does eat? Questions flew through my head as I searched for a reasonable answer to all them but getting nothing. Lauren most likely doesn't know but I'll talk to Ashley tomorrow.

Halsey's POV
I lay still only thinking about Lauren and just to my luck, she shows up in pajamas and smiles down at me. I smile back while I try to move over a little bit for her to be able to lay down. "We're going to be cuddling anyways, right?" She asks. I nod my head as she climbs in and snuggles up to me. I pull her closer to me as I apologize.

"I'm sorry for how I reacted, Lauren. I don't hate you, okay?" She nods against my chest and I start to play with her hair until I hear a sniffle. "Lauren?" I ask. She looks up at me with tears in her eyes.

"I'm sorry for spilling your secret. I had promised to keep it to myself but I broke that promise. I-I was..." She paused, bursting into tears which broke my heart. I held her even tighter as if something bad would happen to her if I were to let go. "I-I was s-scared." She choked out. 

"I know that, I know you were just trying to help me and I'm actually totally fine with what you did. A lot of people have anxiety and some have depression, it's fine." I say, comforting her. I rub her back a bit as I try to get her to calm down and when she does, she quietly says,

"Ally knows I like you but we can trust her not to tell. That's one of the best things about her." I smile and kiss her on the forehead before falling asleep. 

(The next morning)
After we got back from the hospital which was terrifying because I thought they would find out and tell Lauren about my eating disorder, all the girls decide on going out to breakfast as usual. I told them I wasn't going but then right after, Ally changed her mind and stayed as well, so I here I am, leaning against the kitchen counter with my crutches beside me, just contemplating life. I take in a deep breath for no reason as Ally comes up beside me.

"Ash?" I turn my head and acknowledge her presence with a nod. "Are you sure you don't want something to eat? You haven't ate anything today." She says. I nod,

"Yeah, I'm fine. I had something to eat when I first woke up but thanks for the offer anyways." I lie. She nods with a soft smile then we fall silent. None of us speak for a good while before Ally finally gets the guts to confront me of my disorder that I have no idea she knew about.

"You lied to me. I don't think you've had anything to eat for a good few days." She says, looking me up and down. I raise my eyebrows in utter surprise as she stares at me, I can almost feel her eyes burning through me. 

"No, I'm fine. I don't know what you're talking about." I try defending myself but that doesn't work.

"I'm pretty damn sure you know what I'm talking about." She snaps, scaring the hell out of me. I furrow my eyebrows in fear and confusion.

"What?! I'm sorry, but you're scaring me, Ally." I say nervously. She sighs and her eyes soften before she apologizes to me.

"Sorry for snapping but I'm worried, really worried." She admits. I look at her with a raised eyebrow, as if asking her what exactly she's worried about. "Um..." She sighs and looks me in the eye. "Do you happen to have... an eating disorder?" Her voice is soft and sweet but it still scares me because I was never ever expecting to hear those words from her. I stand there, frozen and unable to say a thing as I stare at her. "Do you, honey?" She asks again in an extremely soft voice. In that moment, I totally forget about my foot as I try to run from her but the second it hits the ground, I cry out in pain. If Ally wasn't there to catch me, I would be on the floor right now most likely crying because it hurts like hell. I don't want to cry in front of anyone other than Lauren so that's what's holding the tears back right now. 

"That hurts!" I groan as she hands me my crutches and walks me over to the couch. I sit down and catch my breath for a moment before she asks again,

"Are you really starving yourself, hun?" I can hear the pain in her voice so I answer honestly, knowing I can't run from this... seriously, I can't. I nod my head as my whole body tenses even more than before. "How long has this been going on?"

"Uh... A good three m-months." I stutter slightly. She nods and takes one of my hands in hers.

"I won't tell anyone if you end this eating disorder and get better on my terms. Other than that, I'll have to tell Lauren. She doesn't know does she?" I shake my head as I get pulled into a hug. "I'm sorry Ashley but I can't handle seeing you like this. Do you trust me?" She asks. I hesitate at first but finally nod.

"Yes, I trust you. J-Just please don't t-t-tell Lauren, or a-anyone." I stutter as I feel her hold onto me tighter.

"As long as you can get better, yes." She tells me. I don't see the point of getting any better, I'm fine. I'm alive, not dead right? What's with her, why is she so worried? My fans told me this was the best way to go so I obeyed them, and took their advice. As we pull away from the hug, we both hear an ear piercing screech of frustration then a familiar voice, most likely belonging to Lauren, yell,

"You don't know what's happening in my life, Dinah!! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!" 

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I'm sorry if these cliff hangers are going to annoy anyone but I just seem to always end on one. I can't control it. I know some of you have been awaiting this chapter for a couple hours so here you are!