Save Me (Halren)

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Halsey's POV
Dinah and Normani went out for breakfast so now it's just the four of us all sitting on the couch, talking. Lauren and I don't have to hide our relationship with Ally and Camila since they know. Well, Camila has probably figured it out now. So that means that Lauren's snuggled into my side while I've got an arm around her.

"There's no way you can do the show tonight so I guess we'll somehow have to work as a trio. I don't know how that's gonna work but we'll figure it out." Ally says, moving off of the topic of which flavor of pringles is the best. As I thought, Lauren speaks up.

"I'm fine. We can't let the fans down anyways." Then she adds on, "plus, we already have one fifth missing. We can't have two." Camila sends her a small glare, frowning. 

"I'm ignoring that. Anyways, even if Lauren can't go on you'll be fine. You were able to slay when I was sick so who says you can't slay tonight?" She encourages. Ally gives her a smile before turning to Lauren and I. I know Lauren's not fit to do the show tonight but I also know she won't go down without a fight. 

"Thanks Camz, but honestly I'm fine. I don't even feel sick anymore." She pleads. Just like I thought, she's not gonna stop trying to convince us through out the whole day. I hear a sigh then as I look over at Ally, she speaks.

"Yeah, try saying that when you vomit on the front row of people in the middle of the show." I try holding in a laugh as Lauren shoots her a look then looks over at me.

"Hey, what are you laughing at? I'm fine." She repeats for the third time probably.

"You're not." I say. She fakes a glare at me, I can tell she's really trying to make that glare seem real.

"I am."

"You're not."

"I am."

"You are not, Lauren." We all say, making her shut up for a while. She's not in any way fit to perform tonight and what Ally just said, would have a high possiblity of happening if she were to go on stage. She can't but that doesn't mean I can't fill in for her... but what are the fans gonna think about me? They'll probably hate me, they won't like me, it'll be a waste of their money. I can't put them through all that torture tonight so what's gonna happen? I have no idea. Should I go on for Lauren or not? Probably not.

"Hey Ashley, you could perform with us. If you want." Ally says and I just happen to look over at my girlfriend in that moment. She has a small smile on her face before saying.

"I give up. That'd actually be great if you went on for me, Ash."

Oh, fuck it.

I have to put in this show for Lauren. If I mess up even once, I'm dead. More hate after hate will show up and I won't be able to hide that from Laur and everyone else. Heck, I won't even be able to handle it by myself. Don't mess up, that's all I have to tell myself. I finally nod, agreeing to go on stage for them.

"Sure. I'd be able to." I say, Ally smiles back at me.

"Cool, then if you wanna come with me to rehearsals later today so we can get you set with Lauren's part." She says. I nod and take in a breath as I go through the whole situation over and over again. I cannot mess up... and I won't. I'll make sure I won't.

"Alright, cool." I respond, cuddling more into Lauren. I look up at her and she smiles down at me before pecking me on the lips. I quickly jerk away from her because there's no way I can become sick for the show.

"Ew." Camila makes a face at us.

"I agree with you Camila." Ally says as I make a disgusted face like the other two people in this room while Lauren has a smirk on her lips.

"I thought you liked my kisses?" She questions trying to make it sound like she's hurt and it kind of works.

"I do, just not when you're sick!" I say. "God, you're so difficult to take care of." I mutter under my breath loud enough for everyone to hear. Ally and Camila laugh while Lauren's looks at me with a look saying 'are you sure?'

"Yes, I'm sure." I tell her.

"I think it should be the other way around most times. This time doesn't really count." She says and I shrug my shoulders, grabbing her hand and rubbing my thumb up and down on the back of her hand. She smiles and rests her head on my shoulder. I love this girl.

Lauren's POV
I hate being sick, it's terrible. I wish I could go on stage because I can't wait to see the fans again but I lost the little debate, whatever it was, but at least Ashley's taking the stage for me and I know she'll do great. I don't have to worry and anyways, Ally will teach her all the moves she has to know.

As I'm sitting here on the couch getting more and more bored as the seconds fly by, I let out a long sigh and grab my phone. I hope there's something I can find to occupy my time with. Ashley had already gone with Ally so I'm stuck here with Camila and she's no help since all she really does is sleep. How can you spend your whole day sleeping? I just don't get it.

I look down at my phone in my hand as an idea pops into my head. Ashley, she seemed really skinny to me and I was almost convince she isn't eating. So I decided to search up these eating disorders and see of I can try and help her. I type in how can you know if someone has a eating disorder, then I tapped search and looked through the articles.

Clicking on the first one, I go down the page and read the symptoms.

Poor body image,
Fear of eating in public,
Cutting foods from their diet,
Easily getting cold,
Wearing baggy clothes,

"Hey Lauren, what'ya looking at?" I hear Camila's voice from beside me causing me to look up. Sure enough, she's standing there towering over me while looking over my shoulder in attempt to see what I'm doing on my phone. I turn off my phone, not sure if Ashley would really want anyone to know... that is if she even has an eating disorder of some sort.

"I'm just bored." I answer with a small smile.

"Oh okay." She smiles which soon turns into a grin. "Did you know we have just this show to get through tonight then we'll have our three weeks off?" She looks so happy. I nod and smile.

"Yeah I know. Too bad I can't do this last show." She nods and gives me a sad smile.

"Yeah, but at least they'll enjoy watching Halsey. That'll be awesome." Camila tells me and I agree. It is great that she's taking my spot but I still would've gone on stage if they allowed me. "You wanna go to rehearsals and watch them at least?" She asks. I nod, knowing it would be a lot more fun than just sitting here all day.

"Sure." I respond and she smiles. At least I'll get to watch the show.

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Sorry for such a late update, but it's here! I've been working on my other story, Lost Pieces, so that's partly why I've haven't been updating this one as much but thanks everyone for all the reads and votes!