I can't forgive you
I can't forget
Its like your fingers
Never left my body
My nose can't get rid
Of your scent
I dream of pushing
You away from me
Of telling you I hate you
But I always wake up
Before I can really
Disintegrate you
And I know that it means
You'll always be
A part of me
And that's why
I hate myself
I hate that your hands
Touched me
And I couldn't fight
Even though the angel
On my shoulder told me
To never let you in
And I knew that
She was right
But how could I tell you no
I did tell you no
But you didn't stop
I can still feel the pain
I can still hear the rain
Washing against
The windowpane
Cleaning away everything
But the memory of
What it felt like to
Be killed and
To live anyway
The devil on my other side
Told me to kill you
I wanted to
I wanted to kill you
The way you killed me
And left me to fend for myself
And all I can ever feel now
Is your hands grasping
My belt
And every time he kisses me
I remember how your kiss felt
And I want to die
Because you took away
Everything that I wanted
To live for
And every time I breathe
Each time I climb into
That very same bed
I wish upon a million stars
That you had
Just killed me instead
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Lost Words
Random"If you don't say what you feel, you'll forget how to feel." A book of poems. All of which are mine.
