We are all secrets Can't be exposed. *Sequal to Avoiding the truth*

Chapter 7

LOUIS POV

I'm slowly loosing it and I know it. I can't live without Harry, well Harry loving me. I have so much love for that boy and it hurts me becasue I can't show it to him.

"Did you hear me Lou?" Harry said as I came out of my thought. "No sorry." I replied. "I'm going out today." Harry said smiling and I stood up grabbing my jacket.

"Sorry, I'd rather go alone." Harry said. That broke my heart. We always spent all the time we could together. Oh yeh, that was old Harry. I nodded sadly and Harry left.

I went to the shower to cry.

HARRY'S POV

I know I hurt Louis back there but if he came with me I can't imagine how hurt he would be then. I knew I was going to have to tell him at some point but I had a plan.

I had met Leha at school and we used to date. I had kept in contact with her and decided to ask if she wanted to meet up. Its safe to say she was surprised but I convinced her to see me today.

I entered the coffee shop and saw her sitting at a table in the far corner. I had to prove to myself I was straight. "Hey." I said camly sitting down. "Hi." Leha said.

"So I have to ask," Leha started, "Why call me after all this time?" She said. Right away with the questions. "Don't know," I said, "I haven't dated in a while and I thought about dating and remebered you."I said and she seemed satisfied.

"Sorry," She said, "I just wanted to get that out of the way." I nodded and smiled. "So how have you been?" I asked just to clear the air. The date mostly consisted of us making small talk. Wow, I forgot how boring she was.

Louis kept coming into my head and I mentally slapped myself everytime I thought of him.

I tried my best to avoid talking about me loosing my memory and kept the talk focused on her. I thought if I had a girlfriend Louis might back off.

We had chatted for about an hour, her mostly talking, and I decided it was time to make a move. I reached over to grab her hand and she complied smiling at me. She was rather pretty.

Not as cute as... I meantally slapped myself as I tried to focus on her. "I've really enjoyed this date." I said and she leaned forward and so did I.

She laughed and I closed the space between us. I felt nothing. Even just Louis touching me sent me off but with Leha I felt absolutely nothing. I just sat there trying to think about something else.

I only needed her to complete my plan. "Want to go back to mine?" I asked and she nodded egerly. Now I knew the only reason she was here. Just because I was famous now and not the boring Harry she knew from school.

The drive was short and she kept trying to kiss me all they way. I told her I should focus on driving and she nodded. We arrived and she got out.

We were barley in the door and she slammed me against it kissing me roughly. "Haz?" I heard Louis call and I kept kissing her.

I heard him coming up the stairs and I put a bit more effort in. "HAZ!" Louis suddenly screamed and I broke away.

He was lying on the floor practiaclly screaming. It sounded like he was dying. I told her she should probably go and she nodded seeming concerned for Louis.

I didn't want to hurt him that much. I came to his side and he was rocking back and forth. "Lou." I whispered. "How could you." He said sitting up. He was a mess.

"HOW COULD YOU!" Louis repeated this time much louder and he cryed into my chest. Oh god.

[There is going to be some self harm after this but not in detail. Just a warning! ]

LOUIS POV

I had hardly left my room all day. I typed in 'Larry' on every social media I could think of and read and watched all the things about me and Harry. I had almost cried all day, releasing my pain through the form of blood loss and cutting.

Now my body was in as much pain as my head. It felt equal and a way to relieve stress. I washed away the blood and the tears and then waited for Harry.

I heard the door open and I shouted for him. With no responce I came down the stairs just wanting to see him again. I saw him alright. Snogging the face off some random girl.

It felt as if my whole body had stopped. I screamed for him before lying on the floor screaming and fighting against my body wanting to shut down. Harry came over and sent the girl away.

All the cuts couldn't amount for this much pain. Harry held me and I screamed at him and how stupid I had been. I should have kissed him sooner.

It was an hour later and me and Harry were on the couch. I couldn't belive he hadn't noticed the cuts. Harry removed his arm. The one thing that had come out of this again, was that I was so paranoid.

"Where are you going?" I asked as Harry got up. "Toilet." Harry said crouching down and lookng me in the eyes. "I'm sorry Lou." He said, "I didn't even like her, at all." Harry said and I smiled. That made me feel slightly better.

Harry stood up and then stopped. "Lou, why do I have blood on my trousers?" He asked and then I felt my trousers were soaked with blood ad I sighed.

"Ohmygod." Harry gushed leaning down to inspect it. "We need to get you cleaned up." Harry said and I grabbed him.

"Read it." I croaked and Harry looked confused. I peeled off my trousers and Harry gasped. He crouched down to be level with it and he started crying. "I'm so sorry. So so sorry." Harry said standing up to go and get water and a cloth to clean the blood.

The thing that had made Harry cry so much was becasue I had carved into my legs,

Gay isn't an insult.

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A/N

*cries* okay so do you guys want Harry  to instantly remember everything or work towards it? I would really like some input! :) Again a shout out to @fofo_naser :) THANKS FOR BEING THE FIRST ONE TO COMMENT AHHHH :)

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