Dark Storms

Chapter Nine

Kellin pulled my waist towards him about to kiss me when i pushed him away and ran for the bathroom. I slammed the door behind me and locked it, i didn't want him to see me like this.

I finally caught my breath and heard light knocking. "Sweetheart, are you okay?"

"Uh yeah i'm fine. I think i'm just a little hungry. And in deep need of a shower. I'll be out in ten?"

"Alright, let me know if you need anything."

I turned on the shower to a decent temperature for the process of washing my hair and body but that only took two minutes. So i turned the water nice and hot to give myself time to think. I sat down and held my knees to my chest, closing my eyes. Tears poured down my cheeks, the truth was i didn't know what to do.

When i got out of the shower, i brushed my teeth and ran a comb through my hair. I stepped out of the bathroom in my towel and ran into kellin who was holding a plate of pancakes and sausage. His face was set on me, he stared at me. I shifted uncomfortably, i'm self conscious about my body. It's not that i'm flat or that i have extra pounds or anything i just hate being naked in front of people. I clenched my towel to my body tighter.

"I don't have clean clothes," i said to him, who still kept his eyes on me. He answered a total of three minutes later..

"I have sweatpants and stuff you can wear for now. I'll go to your apartment with you after breakfast to get real clothes and your suitcase." He was still fucking staring.

Kellin finally looked up into my eyes and smiled at me. He tilted my chin up to kiss me softly with care that gave me goosebumps. He led me to his room where he kept all of his clothes and let me pick out whatever fit. I put on his sweatpants and one of his tshirts that was larger on me but super comfortable. I ate the food he made me and when i walked into the kitchen i noticed there was a cappuccino on the counter for me.

"Trev picked this up for you," Justin claimed.

"Well aren't i lucky. Where is he?"

"He wanted to be here to say goodbye but he started this new job or something and got called in. He just told me to make sure i gave you your coffee." Are you kidding me.

Kellin walked into the kitchen and grabbed my hand, "Are you ready to go get your stuff so we can get this show on the road? We need to be back here in an hour and a half so the guys don't leave with the tour bus without us!"

"Yeah let's go." I meant to sound happy, but i was upset. I don't even get to say goodbye to him like what the hell.

I changed at my apartment in my room while Kellin waited for me on the couch. I walked back out five minutes later and i just stared at him.

"Where's your suitcase?" I looked at the ground. It took a couple seconds to settle in. "You're not coming are you." I broke into tears and he ran over to me and hugged me. "Shh darling it's okay. You didn't seem to be feeling well earlier. You don't have to come today if you aren't up for it. Maybe you can just meet up with me at one show and tour the rest with me. I want you to get better."

I nodded into his chest and we stayed there for a long time. He held my face and kissed me passionately, not just softly like he usually does. I realized that my cheeks weren't the only ones filled with tears. That just made me cry harder and pull him tighter. I didn't want him to leave, why did this have to be so hard?

We calmed down after a while and just closed our eyes with our foreheads pressed together. Then he said, "Come on. I'll tuck you in and get you all settled in before i go."

He had me lay down in my bed while he made me soup. He put it on my bedside table and noticed my ipod was laying there. Crawling into my bed, he placed a headphone into my one ear and placed the other in his. As soon as he turned it on, his cover of 'Iris' started playing. I loved the way he covered it, it was my most played song on my ipod. About 20 seconds into the song he started singing along to it in my ear, his angelic voice made me happy.

But soon it was time for him to go back to the hotel so he could catch the tour bus. I offered to drive him but he said he wanted to walk so he could soak up the town before leaving it behind.

Our goodbye consisted of cuddling, hugs, and millions of kisses on our lips, noses, foreheads, cheeks, necks, everywhere.

"It won't be that long. I'll see you soon Mac." He had one foot out the door.

"See yah later Kell." I flashed him a half smile in which he returned before he closed the door behind him.

I returned my headphones into my ears and changed into the clothes he had let me borrow this morning. What am i supposed to do now?