Peter Parker Imagines

Dark Thoughts (T.H.)

This is dark. Read at your own risk... read if you are comfortable with mental problems and obsessions and things like that.

Requested by @20IrOnHeArT17

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I miss it.

I miss everything.

Everything about you.

The way you smiled, the way you held me.

But I guess I was never good enough. I was never beautiful, caring, and smart enough. I was just a piece of cake, that you would just discard. Melanie Martinez right there.

But I still love you. Even though you never loved me. I still miss you.

I find myself screaming your name in my sleep. You need to love me. I need to make you love me.

After everything we have went through, you just dump me. You told me I had changed. You said I was different. I'm not different. The only difference is you taking away your love for me.

I don't know how to forgive you for that. Except if you let me love you again. If you love me.

Wrap your arms around me, Tom. Kiss me with passion, the passion that was missing when we were together. Give me all your love. I wish you would.

It's terrifying, not having you around. It pains me everyday when I wake up, when I go to sleep. I can't help but feel sad and angry at the same time. I feel like loving you again, but leaving you at the same time.

And today I just can't bear to live one more day without you. I need to see you again, and tell you how I feel. It's not going to go well if you don't.

As I walk to your apartment, my head spins. No, I haven't been going outside much, so it all hurts. I stay in my apartment all day, thinking about you.

I don't have an obsession, I just like to look at photos of you and I. I still have that big collage of us. It still hangs on my wall. It helps me get a little sleep.

I finally get to your apartment, and the door is unlocked. So I walk in. And then I scream.

I see you cuddling with some girl on the couch. You got over me. It's only been a year.

My eyes flood with red as I slump to the floor. I hate you, Tom. I hate you with everything within me.

*Tom's P.O.V.*

I hear the scream coming from behind me. It's her. It's (Y/n). Or at least what's left of her.

The only reason that I broke up with her was that she had changed. I had lost the real (Y/n) a long time ago. During the end of the relationship, she became very obsessed with our relationship. I felt her fall apart, until there was not much (Y/n) left.

When I look at her now, I realize that there is nothing left. This isn't (Y/n) anymore.

In mere seconds, I see her lunging for my girlfriend. I try to block her, but (Y/n) scratches her like a wild animal. "I will kill you!" She screams, lunging for us again.

I hold my girlfriend away from (Y/n). "Call 9-1-1!" I shout.

*Time skip*

I know sit in the mental institution, helping the doctors understand what's wrong. Her parents sit on one of the couches in shock. (Y/n) has been battling with a mental disorder for years now, it had finally escaped and taken over her. She was no longer herself. I should have noticed sooner.

I'm so mad at myself for that. I could have helped. I could still have my (Y/n). But now she's gone. But, I know that the real (Y/n) is waiting for me in heaven. I will see her someday. And I promise to love her, forever.

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Word count: 607

Well...this was very sad and depressing... I'm so so sorry for that.

I promise I will make some really cute and cuddly one later on! Please bear with me! I hope you liked this, I hope you feel the raw emotion that I was trying to pursue! If you have any pointers, please share them with me!

Lol byeee,

Jillian♥️🕷🥐