Emotionless Robot? (Logicality)

Chapter Six: Up at the Wrong Hour

I'm back again!! This didn't take me a terribly long amount of time. I'm going to be very busy this school year, I won't be writing for this story as often as I'd like, but hopefully it won't seem like I'm abandoning this... If it seemed like I updated twice, I edited a previous chapter slightly to fit the full timeline I've got planned out for this universe. (I don't usually post trigger warnings, but I'm quite fond of everyone in this fandom and dont want to cause anyone discomfort or trigger anything for anyone.)

Possible Trigger: Minor Anxiety Attack

Logan sat up in his bed feeling slightly groggy, he had just woken up, now he had to check the time.

It was very early, but he knew he couldn’t go back to sleep, that’d be impossible.

He stood up and stretched feeling the slightly stiff muscles lighten and become much looser. He decided to run through a lot more stretches, his muscles deserve more usage, it made him feel better to take this time to give his body the moment it needed so he didn’t overexert himself or pull his muscles.

He took a look in the mirror to make sure he looked presentable, even though, he was sure the others were all still asleep. He quietly made his way to the common area to make sure the others were in bed and not roaming about in the early morning hour.

As soon as he walked into the common area, he saw Roman and Virgil sitting together on the couch, Logan was massively confused.

“What time is it?” Logan asked the slightly stunned couple on the couch.

“It’s five p.m., Logan are you supposed to be up right now?” Roman asked.

Logan nodded “I must have been off by a whole twelve hours, oh my, I have ruined my sleep schedule.” Logan looked around the room, finally noticing Patton's absence, in his slightly foggy mind, he had assumed Patton was there. “Where is Patton?”

The couple squinted at each other as if they were trying to decide what was necessary or what they should tell Logan. Logan noticed the look, took a bit of time to try and interpret it, and then his face took on a sour look, whatever was going on, he didn’t like one bit of it.

“They’re lyying to yyou…” Logan was slightly stunned, there it was again, he was sure it wasn’t him this time, he was still trying to understand why they were squinting at each other.

“Do you hear that?” He asked frantically.

Roman stopped squinting at Virgil and turned with a surprised look at Logan. Roman seemed to breathe as if he needed to completely empty his lungs, he began to look terrified.

“Roman, are you okay?” Logan asked desperately.

“Not if I’m correct, Logan, we are all in big trouble if I’m right…”

The three of them looked to the floor as their hearts all beat in sync, before too long, Roman noticed Virgil’s change in his breathing pattern, he recognized the onset of a possible attack. Roman began to work on calming him down. Logan just stood by dumbly, what could Roman be afraid of? He was only a month senior to Logan, then again, he was never told what had happened the month before he arrived.

Logan's heart rate picked up, this situation is proving to be terrifying. Logan longed for something to hug or even just something to keep his conscious from leaving his body. He closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and pushed his longings back down, essentially, swallowing any and all of the feelings he should be expressing.

Thinking back, this isn’t the first time Logan has pushed his feelings aside as to not disturb anyone; he knows it’s not a good coping mechanism, and yet, telling others his feelings, or what he assumes are feelings, is something that seems all but impossible to him. It’s almost as if whatever he's feeling isn’t something that he thinks should be worked out and understood by others and himself.

Logan's heart rate picked up even faster, now it was starting to get out of control, he can feel a small sense of dread, as if something was inherently wrong. He began breathing in a calming manner, trying to calm down.

It took him a minute, but his overwrought mind was finally clear enough to remove himself from the room, he didn’t want to have to explain or have Roman learn that he was connected to Virgil in this one way, after all, for a little while Logan took the brunt of these attacks, until Virgil showed up. These attacks really affect all four of them, even if it seemed not to be the case for the other two.

He sprawled out onto his bed again, he attempted to calm his breathing. He played some soothing music trying to keep himself from slipping any deeper, he knew that Virgil tried to keep Logan from feeling any worse than minor attacks. He had been through worse than this.

This was one thing Logan was sure Patton never knew, the reason his emotions were so suppressed was because he couldn’t handle these situations without withdrawing. Logan has always been impressed with Patton's ability to draw people's positive emotions out. He knew how to calm Anxiety and how to help Logan when he knew he needed it.

When Logan finally stopped feeling anxious, his lungs were burning and he was exhausted, he closed his eyes and listened to the sounds of the environment and slowly drifted off again.

I hope everyone enjoyed this chapter. Feedback is appreciated as always.  (Okay, sorry if it says I updated again today, I just noticed a bunch of things that I needed to fix.)