You can never figure out someone's past. It's shocking to hear about it and you never assume what other people have been through. You never know if they've been abused or bullied. Sometimes you don't even know how hard their heart's been broken.
People can look at the most insulting message and they'll smile so no one asks what's up even though it's their father disowning them. Many people get over the past whilst others live in the past. It gets to the point where a piece of grass reminds you of someone who completely broke you. The littlest things remind you of the past. You will be alone in bed and think of it. You'll hear one word and think of your dad yelling that word and smacking you. You never have anything that doesn't remind you of someone getting rid of you. You like little things because they're easier to forget. You like tiny notes instead of letters. You'll take someone's bracelet or ring instead of a hoodie. You'll play with someone's hair because everyone has it so it can't make you sad. You don't even know how to talk to people because you always think people are judging you. You remember everytime someone has called you ugly. You sit on your bed writing "you're cute" on your leg to remind yourself. When you call yourself cute and someone agrees, you immediatly think they're lying and just trying to cheer you up. The point of this is to know that you never know what's going on in someone's head. You never know what has happened to them or how they really feel. Never assume what someone is thinking if they're looking at you in the corner of their eye. They may be hoping you're not talking about them. They just hope you understand that it's hard for them not to be paranoid.
