You think you found the one. They treat you like royalty and love you to death. They act like you're perfection. They act like they're disgusting but they're amazing and you want to try your hardest to get them to believe that. You don't want them to be insecure. You want them to know that they're cute, hot, and the most amazing person you've ever met. But you can't tell them because you live in constant anxiety. You love them so much that your charcoal black heart has turned tp a crystal blue. You're scared about how they feel about themselves so you want them to feel perfect for you. You fear them trying too hard to impress you. You don't want them to be fake for your happiness because their happiness matters more than yours does. You never want them to change because they're absolutely perfect. How do you let them know?
You send them paragraphs explaining your feelings for them. You send them quotes and poems so they know how you feel. Not even you can figure out why you just don't use your words. You send them songs though. Songs represent words that you can't think to say. You also have a bit of fear that they didn't listen to the song. Then, they won't know how you feel. What if they don't have any idea how you feel? You don't know why you stress about it but you always ask them if they listened to it. You then ask them if you've annoyed them because you annoy everyone. The answer is no. You're amazed how someone could bear you all the time. Even your parents are annoyed by you. You can't believe that someone loves you so much that they're not annoyed by your random facts, your random thoughts, or even your high pitched noises. Maybe this person love you no matter what you do. How could it be? It's a mystery, my love.
