Shattered - Kim Taehyung x Reader [Best Friends]

Chapter 11

Taehyung's P.O.V

Am I really that foolish? I just cheated on my girlfriend that I supposedly love for my best friend... The worst part of all is that I don't feel any guilt. I've wanted to kiss Y/N for so long, there were always temptations but I never acted on my feelings. I was scared. The look on Y/N's face when I kissed her, she looked so upset. Does she not feel anything for me? Have I just ruined my whole friendship? I knew this was a mistake. I should just focus on Jessica, the girl who actually loves me, instead of having mixed feelings towards my best friend. It's for the best, she doesn't like me so it won't affect her. It's okay...
I'm okay.

Y/N's P.O.V

Tears running down my face, I know that he doesn't truly love me the way I do. It only hurts me more when I think about the kiss, the look on his face reminds me that he just felt lonely, he was confused and that his actions were only a result from it. When I slapped him all I could see was guilt, it only confirmed that my love was one-sided. I've gotten used to being the second choice, I've never been good enough for anyone. Always so lonely. I know that I could never be like Jessica, I'm not good enough for Tae.
Once I got home it was 10 pm and I remember my mom yelling at me for a good 5 minutes, I wanted to break down and cry. Tell her everything, but it wasn't the right time so I bottle up my emotions like I usually do.

The next morning I had no will to get out of bed and face the world. The constant ringing of my alarm only annoyed me, so eventually, after a 5-minute debate with myself I got up and dressed for school. I didn't bother putting much effort into my appearance, only basic concealer to hide the redness and puffiness from my eyes. I had agreed to avoid Tae at all costs and make sure that I have no contact with him. Our friendship... was falling apart because of silly feelings, how pathetic can I be?
Once I arrived at school I felt eyes on me, everyone was watching me and I didn't understand why. I heard Jimin shouting at me from down the hall, I smiled when I heard his voice. It had been weeks since I last spoke to him and I really did miss him.
"Y/N! What happened?" I looked at him confused, not understanding what he meant. The only thing that happened was that Taehyung kissed me. Nothing else.

"What do you mean Jimin? Nothing happened?" I heard people around me whisper as they looked at me. What the fuck is going on. Jimin grabbed my wrist and dragged me to an empty classroom, he looked at me as if I was crazy and I had said the most ridiculous thing ever.

"You and Taehyung. Jessica told everyone you kissed him and then slapped him? Were you guys not best friends? What is going on, explain to me." I felt numb. Tae told her, except he lied. Tae made me look as if I was the bad guy, the one who went after him and tried to break his relationship. I broke down, I didn't want any of this to happen I only wanted to move on with my life and do what I usually do. Everything was normal before Jessica came along. I cried and cried, Jimin stood in front of me frozen unsure what to do. I don't blame him, I don't know what to do either.

"Ji-Jimin. That's not what h-happened, he kissed me. I didn't want any of this to happen. I only wanted to be his best friend and support him with whatever he wanted, I didn't want this drama or Jessica to bother me. He kissed me. HE KISSED ME JIMIN! Not the other way around. I'm nothing to him, I am only a toy and he went and made me look as if I was the horrible one. I already know that he will never love me. I don't understand why he wants to break me so much. I can't continue with this Jimin."
Jimin stared at me in silence, clearly unable to comprehend the word that had come out of my mouth. Maybe he thought I was lying, maybe he was convinced that I had come on to Tae since he knew about my feelings.  "So he really kissed you? Why would Taehyung lie though? You are friends and he's never done this before."

"Probably to get rid of the guilt. I don't know Jimin. If I had the answers I wouldn't be here right now." I glare at him, clearly annoyed. The red haired boy smiles sheepishly his face turning red from embarrassment.

"Sorry.." I sigh and smile at him. There's no point in worrying when Taehyung isn't around, I just need to confront him when the time is right. I grab Jimin's hand and head to class as the bell rang. Hoping the rest of the day would be calm.
Boy I was wrong.

Authors Note:
Hehe.. Hi. So it's been a long time! But honestly I've been considering deleting this book or putting it on hold.

I don't like the plot line and my quality of writing isn't great, the whole book just doesn't really make sense 🤷🏻‍♀️

Well anyway sweeties. The Tear album had me shook and Namjoon snatched me and I get emo at outro tear lmao